Breaking point
Okay any of my friends, that still live in th area, know that lately I havent really talked or hung out with anybody. But the other day I got to thinking, What is drama? I mean I have gone without it for almost a month now and I have to say I dont miss it. I dont miss how it puts an unncecessary stress on your life, how it can drive a wedge in between two friends and make them bitter enemies. And so I have been living a nice life, havent had to deal with much, been concentrating on my own thing, than I get the call. It was Kari, it turns out her and her boyfriend ryan(I know creepy)had broken up. And ya know I felt really bad for Kari because she was crying and so I went to go see her. And while we were walking and she was talking on her phone I thought, "Ya know this is that unnecessary stress I had been thinkng about."
So than today me and Kari were talking and she made a pretty mean comment. Even if you were kidding Kari, it really did hurt. And it made me think immediately, "I dont cry every time I break up with a chick, although I havent been with one in a while." And kari has cried when she broke up with both katto and ryan. So, I have started to think about what is love? Not just the definition of it, but also the physical aspects of it. So I asked my friendly neighbrhood best friend and she said that when they walk into the room you can just tell. And she also said that is what she felt for her now ex-boyfriend. And I think I disagree with her.
I dont think love is a feeling, but more like a state of being. Were the mind becomes dependent on seeing that person, and it needs to be around it in order for it to function properly. So, I think that love is just a stata of being, so what would make anybody think that this feeling of need is good. TO enslave the mind and make it go to the point were it needs something, is just mind boggling to me why anybody would step into it.
I dont trust what people tell me, I can say mostly out of sheer happiness, that I have not ever felt love. I dont know if I want to, I have seen it turn the strongest and most remarkable people into blubbering losers, complete idiots. So I tell myself that it wont happen, that love isnt for a person like me. But than what is made fir people like me? Am I the kind of persont hat grows up, goes to college, moves to another state and than they just become a faceless void in the shadows. I dont want to be a nobody, but do I have a choice? Or is everything all set, is everything done in the way that it will be. Can you change your future?
Anyway before I get to deep in that I have a question for all of you that think you have experienced love, would you think that love is a great thing? Do you think it makes you happier? Does it make everything easier? How did you feel when they werent around?
So, technically saying that I am wrong and saying that love is like in the movies and there is someone waiting for everybody. Than how do you know that this feeling is love? I am so full of questions, and I need more than one answer, more than one opinion. So maybe love isnt an emotion or even a state of being, maybe it is a concept. Just something that at one time was considered a theory, but over years it became known as a law, than a feeling and than an emotion. So maybe it is just a figment of ur imagination, who knows. Maybe everyone is right and it is an emotion.
I have been wondering about emotions, what makes them... well them. What makes us laugh? What decides what we think of as funny, or sad, etc. Phtsically it is a part of our brain being triggered, but what triggers it? I think that the brain is a mass of information waiting to be filtered and understood.
So than today me and Kari were talking and she made a pretty mean comment. Even if you were kidding Kari, it really did hurt. And it made me think immediately, "I dont cry every time I break up with a chick, although I havent been with one in a while." And kari has cried when she broke up with both katto and ryan. So, I have started to think about what is love? Not just the definition of it, but also the physical aspects of it. So I asked my friendly neighbrhood best friend and she said that when they walk into the room you can just tell. And she also said that is what she felt for her now ex-boyfriend. And I think I disagree with her.
I dont think love is a feeling, but more like a state of being. Were the mind becomes dependent on seeing that person, and it needs to be around it in order for it to function properly. So, I think that love is just a stata of being, so what would make anybody think that this feeling of need is good. TO enslave the mind and make it go to the point were it needs something, is just mind boggling to me why anybody would step into it.
I dont trust what people tell me, I can say mostly out of sheer happiness, that I have not ever felt love. I dont know if I want to, I have seen it turn the strongest and most remarkable people into blubbering losers, complete idiots. So I tell myself that it wont happen, that love isnt for a person like me. But than what is made fir people like me? Am I the kind of persont hat grows up, goes to college, moves to another state and than they just become a faceless void in the shadows. I dont want to be a nobody, but do I have a choice? Or is everything all set, is everything done in the way that it will be. Can you change your future?
Anyway before I get to deep in that I have a question for all of you that think you have experienced love, would you think that love is a great thing? Do you think it makes you happier? Does it make everything easier? How did you feel when they werent around?
So, technically saying that I am wrong and saying that love is like in the movies and there is someone waiting for everybody. Than how do you know that this feeling is love? I am so full of questions, and I need more than one answer, more than one opinion. So maybe love isnt an emotion or even a state of being, maybe it is a concept. Just something that at one time was considered a theory, but over years it became known as a law, than a feeling and than an emotion. So maybe it is just a figment of ur imagination, who knows. Maybe everyone is right and it is an emotion.
I have been wondering about emotions, what makes them... well them. What makes us laugh? What decides what we think of as funny, or sad, etc. Phtsically it is a part of our brain being triggered, but what triggers it? I think that the brain is a mass of information waiting to be filtered and understood.