I need a personal motivational speaker

[lupshean]

I'm like an old lady now - I barely let myself sleep past 8 am, regardless of how late I was up the night before. It's not like I have to catch a special senior citizens' early bird special down at the local diner - I usually wake up with nothing to do anyway, then just bum around till I find something to pass the time away. However, if this includes 1.) watching tv, then I feel lazy and think that I should be more productive, if it's 2.) reading a book, then I have to stop after a short period of time lest I fall asleep, and if it's 3.) debating whether or not to do something that actually has to get done, then I put it off because I tell myself I don't have time. What?? Honey, that's all I have. I'm just being lazy, sometimes that's an indicator to me that summer is officially here.

But I DO have something to do before work today - helping Katelin paint her room! She's painting it purple too, the girl's got taste (*wink* to Katelin).

Also, I don't know why a certain person, thousands of miles away, still has a way of shaking me up. One e-mail, one memory, and I break down, even if just for a teensy little bit. Is it possible to love and seriously dislike one person at the same time? I don't even know what I want anymore, and I don't know why I feel like I have to know now.

Sorry for getting all deep, just needed to vent :)