An invitation
I got an owl from Prof. Sinistra. She's invited me to come study and work as her assistant for several weeks.
And I have absolutely no idea what to reply.
I hate Astronomy. I mean really, I loathe the subject. I am good at it, I guess. But just because you're good at something doesn't mean you have to enjoy it. But wouldn't it be sort of selfish of me to refuse simply because I'd prefer to do something else? And at least it will be a change. On the other hand, if I accept just to get out of this house and be elsewhere, that's equally selfish. And not really fair, either, as no one else has an escape.
If I went, I'd be... accomplishing something. I'd be useful. (Sure, I am helping clean - but there are plenty of people here to do that.) I'd learn things as well, I suppose. If I stayed... it'd be just like every single other day here has been...
Apparently, she'd wanted to ask me before school ended, but it took a while for to sort out where the past students would be staying, and she wasn't sure who to ask. She also said something about Professor being reticent. I can imagine - Lupin must have refused on my behalf at first, which, while I am completely sure that he knows fully well how little I like Astronomy, but it is a little irritating that he never mentioned it to me. I hate to sound sulky, and I understand what work he is occupied in, but I've seen very little of him this summer... If he was going to decline an invitation for me to go somewhere, it seems that he might at least be able to make enough time to see me. But that's unfair of me. (Besides, it's so awkwardly uncomfortable talking with him anymore. I mean, at first it was interesting and amazing, but then it just got more and more uncomfortable. Especially in regards to what he thinks about - )
I wrote a brief reply saying that I'd think about it, and asking for more specifics. I'm not really sure if it will make much of a difference, but she never mentioned where I'd be going, or what I'd be doing, or anything...
So now I have a few days to make a decision.
And I have absolutely no idea what to reply.
I hate Astronomy. I mean really, I loathe the subject. I am good at it, I guess. But just because you're good at something doesn't mean you have to enjoy it. But wouldn't it be sort of selfish of me to refuse simply because I'd prefer to do something else? And at least it will be a change. On the other hand, if I accept just to get out of this house and be elsewhere, that's equally selfish. And not really fair, either, as no one else has an escape.
If I went, I'd be... accomplishing something. I'd be useful. (Sure, I am helping clean - but there are plenty of people here to do that.) I'd learn things as well, I suppose. If I stayed... it'd be just like every single other day here has been...
Apparently, she'd wanted to ask me before school ended, but it took a while for to sort out where the past students would be staying, and she wasn't sure who to ask. She also said something about Professor being reticent. I can imagine - Lupin must have refused on my behalf at first, which, while I am completely sure that he knows fully well how little I like Astronomy, but it is a little irritating that he never mentioned it to me. I hate to sound sulky, and I understand what work he is occupied in, but I've seen very little of him this summer... If he was going to decline an invitation for me to go somewhere, it seems that he might at least be able to make enough time to see me. But that's unfair of me. (Besides, it's so awkwardly uncomfortable talking with him anymore. I mean, at first it was interesting and amazing, but then it just got more and more uncomfortable. Especially in regards to what he thinks about - )
I wrote a brief reply saying that I'd think about it, and asking for more specifics. I'm not really sure if it will make much of a difference, but she never mentioned where I'd be going, or what I'd be doing, or anything...
So now I have a few days to make a decision.