my guy issues...
issue 1) you know what i miss? strong arms wrapped around my waist, holding me close and telling me that everything is going to be okay. it's always nice if those strong arms are attached to a tall gothic boy, that tells me that he will always be there. but what happened the last time i had a boy wrap his arms around me and tell me those things? he went behind my back and fucked me over. i honestly question whether i'll ever be able to trust any guy again. i mean, i barely trust people as it is, and that just did not help, especially with guys.
issue 2) i like two guys. they're both younger than me, which is a first for me. i see both of them everyday, and i do like one more than the other. but i think they're both clueless. i've given both of them HUGE clues, short of just coming out and telling them that i like them. one of them recently got out of a relationship, and i've been there with him to support him while he gets over her. we've been close for awhile, but we've never really gone past being friends. in the past he has expressed that he liked me, but i don't know about now. i really really like him a lot, and i would love to go out with him. but i don't think he wants a commitment right now, and i'm even okay with that. i understand. i'm not even sure if i'm ready for a solid relationship with a guy right now. the other likes one of my best friends, but she doesn't like him. i really want her to tell him that she doesn't like him like that, but she can't seem to do it. she doesn't want to be mean and hurt his feelings. so i've kinda given up on him, even tho i do really like him and find myself flirting with him everyday. i just want this all to be fixed and to not have to worry about this. i need to meet new guys, who aren't from here or the surrounding area. i need to go to college already...
issue 2) i like two guys. they're both younger than me, which is a first for me. i see both of them everyday, and i do like one more than the other. but i think they're both clueless. i've given both of them HUGE clues, short of just coming out and telling them that i like them. one of them recently got out of a relationship, and i've been there with him to support him while he gets over her. we've been close for awhile, but we've never really gone past being friends. in the past he has expressed that he liked me, but i don't know about now. i really really like him a lot, and i would love to go out with him. but i don't think he wants a commitment right now, and i'm even okay with that. i understand. i'm not even sure if i'm ready for a solid relationship with a guy right now. the other likes one of my best friends, but she doesn't like him. i really want her to tell him that she doesn't like him like that, but she can't seem to do it. she doesn't want to be mean and hurt his feelings. so i've kinda given up on him, even tho i do really like him and find myself flirting with him everyday. i just want this all to be fixed and to not have to worry about this. i need to meet new guys, who aren't from here or the surrounding area. i need to go to college already...