I need more time!!!

[lupe_bitches]

I am so not ready for Christmas yet... I don't know what the hell I am going to do when next year rolls around. I am strangely not quite ready to let go of all of what happened this past year, even the bad stuff. I'm not sure what that means. I think it has something to do with me being a stronger person. I also don't know if I'm ready for what may be lurking around the corner in the coming year. I know that there isnt enough time to breathe sometimes. I regret a lot but I try to learn from my mistakes. I am ever struggling for perfection... I have learned though that there just isnt enough time to do that. Not in this life anyways. So then do we eat, drink, and be Merry?

Thats what I'm trying to figure out... But damnit all to hell I need more time...