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The past 6 or 7 weeks have been so, so much better for me, but I've got massive unfinished business to attend to. (Example: need to figure out alternate housing for next year.) I worry that I am still sort of unstable deep down, but just in a bright spot right now. This scares me a lot, actually. Just this afternoon I felt like I could see the edge of that black hole for the first time in a while. I wasn't there, wasn't in it, but it's still there. I wish it would loom somewhere else.
I know, or am pretty sure at least, it is because I have left the future unplanned. I need to start making to do lists again. I need to remap. Get things done. If I can make myself do this I will stay peachy.
Also: why am I so hungry all the time? I'm usually never super hungry when it's warm out! I feel like I shouldn't have an appetite that fluctuates like mine does. I don’t feel like I have particularly notable food or body image issues, but my appetite never seems to correspond with how hungry I ought to be. Sometimes I’m hungry all the time, sometimes not at all. Wtf? (Someone once suggested that maybe I have polycystic ovary syndrome, but considering that I have an extremely regular cycle and none of the other symptoms or risk factors, I seriously, seriously doubt it.) Maybe I should talk to the doctor about this? Maybe I should just stfu and get more exercise?
I know, or am pretty sure at least, it is because I have left the future unplanned. I need to start making to do lists again. I need to remap. Get things done. If I can make myself do this I will stay peachy.
Also: why am I so hungry all the time? I'm usually never super hungry when it's warm out! I feel like I shouldn't have an appetite that fluctuates like mine does. I don’t feel like I have particularly notable food or body image issues, but my appetite never seems to correspond with how hungry I ought to be. Sometimes I’m hungry all the time, sometimes not at all. Wtf? (Someone once suggested that maybe I have polycystic ovary syndrome, but considering that I have an extremely regular cycle and none of the other symptoms or risk factors, I seriously, seriously doubt it.) Maybe I should talk to the doctor about this? Maybe I should just stfu and get more exercise?