wearing thin
Even now, with the sedatives, and the numness, I know that I am not happy.
I am not who I remember myself as.
I am sad, often lonely, distrustful, angry, resentful, and pessimistic... I remember myself as happy, all smiles and laughter, optimistic, all trusting and kind.
I want my old self back... how to get it back im not sure.
It is depressing, anxiety provoking, and exhausting to feel completely unsure of your future. To not now whats going to happen in a month, a week, a day, even a moment from now.
Its even more exhausting to not even know what you nor your partner wants for your future.
Im scared... and wearing thin.
I am not who I remember myself as.
I am sad, often lonely, distrustful, angry, resentful, and pessimistic... I remember myself as happy, all smiles and laughter, optimistic, all trusting and kind.
I want my old self back... how to get it back im not sure.
It is depressing, anxiety provoking, and exhausting to feel completely unsure of your future. To not now whats going to happen in a month, a week, a day, even a moment from now.
Its even more exhausting to not even know what you nor your partner wants for your future.
Im scared... and wearing thin.