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[luninosity]

So, my plan for today was to finish and submit my book chapter for this collection of academic essays, and then to work on the Erik/Charles werewolf story. I did finish my article. And then I proceeded to write four thousand words of James/Michael AU in which they meet on the Tube and there's pastries and flavored coffee and protective Michael and

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[shayzgirl]

I'm avoiding homework by writing fic but normally I do an hour or so of homework (depends on the homework if I can finish it in less than an hour than I start on fic sooner or if I can finish it in a little over an hour I usually do) and then at least half an hour of fic than back to homework.

Yes, always. Usually I'm checking Lj because I'm on a homework break and have been staring at the mocking blinking cursor. Seeing that you've updated even before reading makes me feel better and reading your words usually provide some form of inspiration somewhere. Not always on the fic I'm meant to be working on, but inspiration is inspiration in my book. I very much do the same. AO3 makes the waiting worse since it doesn't tell me if I have kudos or comments until midnight so I usually have to check the site myself.

I've got two essays to work on, one of which is on a topic I'm not thrilled about at all but I've got the month to work on it so it's not a rush to get it done this weekend. The other one is just tricky to write but I've got the next two weeks for it. Other than that it's some reading in my other two classes. And another thing which I did make a post about, but no rush or need to read it. I just needed to vent that and needed a pick-me-up which your fic helped provide.

And thank you. That means so much to me. Just knowing there's someone I can talk to helps a lot. /hugs. :D

[luninosity]

Hooray for dedication! I'm not good at actually scheduling blocks of time, because sometimes I'll sit in front of the computer for an hour and stare, or other times the paper/story/review will be going really well and I'll just want to keep writing till it's done! But that's not actually as well organized as your system. :-p

Aww. Inspiration? Really? That's...humbling, honestly! :-) Possibly the best compliment ever, to hear that one's own work can make other people want to create things too. *hugs comment, and you* AO3...still invite-only, to make an account? that seems to be my impression from looking at it? is there a way to do that without being on their waiting list?

Good luck on the essays! Two isn't that bad, especially not with immediate deadlines. Hopefully not too long? (Also, I *have* read your other post. Will comment over there, but: basically, your brother sounds like a super-kind person, with all those gestures even when they're not easy in his situation, and your father doesn't deserve any of your attention or time!)

And, of course you can. :-) Not that I claim to have answers for a lot of things *eyes a couple new lines on that wrist* but sometimes you just need someone who'll be there to listen, right?

[shayzgirl]

Well, it's as much dedication as I can manage. If I didn't fit in writing time I'd lose my mind. Though today I've spent most of the day attempting working and failing horribly. I did as you suggested and wrote to one of my teachers but I probably won't hear back from her until tomorrow. Sometimes I really start to doubt being in college. :/

They used to allow people to sent invites to people so they could get an account sooner but they don't seem to be doing that at the moment. If the person running the exchange on AO3 is working it as a challenge (at least based on AO3's terms) they can invite you I think.

One of the essays is part of the above homework struggle. I've reached the "I physically cannot do this assignment" and I'm hoping my teacher understands that and can help me or something. Otherwise I fear I am complete and utterly fucked. Currently just trying not to get upset or think too much about it. I might just go bury myself in fic.

I talked a bit with two of my friends here, one of them is still in school at my school. I just feel like I can't fully open up to them, can't admit that this homework assignment caused me to have a panic attack. Starting to think I should only do a couple of classes, be a part time student instead of full time next semester even if it means I have to wait longer to get my wisdom teeth out.

[luninosity]

Sometimes we all just have those days where the work just doesn't want to happen. (Witness: my current academic book project.) For no readily apparent reason, either. I find it sometimes helps to go do something else, more physical, like yoga, for an hours or so, then come back to the project with less built-up frustration. (About being in college...it's too soon to start doubting that! And you do write better than many of my past undergrads, honestly.)

Hmm. They do say that other users can invite you, but no real info about how that works. I am on the waiting list, but their estimate is December. :-/ Maybe the secret-mutant people will know, since it was their idea to move the exchange over there anyway.

What sort of assignment is it? Generally they're not impossible, given the reading and the resources of the class. They might be difficult, though. But that's what email is for--asking questions, when you need the help! Being a part-time student might be what makes sense, at least for now, while you get acclimated--sometimes it is hard to jump into everything at once. But that's not to say you should go that route; if you're genuinely invested in your classes, and you want to be a full-time student, then that's what you want! And surely your campus has resources for assistance, like a writing center or student center; they could probably offer advice. :-)

[shayzgirl]

I struggled on and off during the four days I have to do homework on this assignment and usually ended up just pushing it away to work on fic or watch Castle or both instead of thinking about it because I was struggling so much. But I'd usually end up feeling worse since that was my main homework besides some reading for other classes, which I completed, and doing a bit of work for my other essay which I have all of tomorrow to work on. The biggest problem was my teacher told us to use a method that I didn't know or understand and she didn't really explain it properly. I thought I could figure it out by I just got more confused. This English class is an 1102 class which I tested into. My teacher has a habit of saying "you should have learned this in 1101" but since I didn't take it, I didn't learn it. I'm horrible at asking for help especially on something that sounds simple enough.

I do know that my campus has a writing center. I just don't know where it is. And I guess I'm leery to use some of their resources when I fought with one of the people in the office when I needed to change a class and was forced against my will to go talk to one of the counselors. I don't trust them, I guess, so I'm afraid to go ask for other help and have what happened before happen again.

To be full-full time I only need 12 credits per semester and right now that's only four classes. I think part of my problem was maybe taking two History classes, an English class, and a Art related class. I think next semester if I stay full time, I'll take two art/creative type classes or something. IDK. Just not three major academic classes since those are the ones currently causing me to struggle so much. But all of my classes are fulfilling my general credits.

I know that in the past I was able to take someone's email address and send them an invite to AO3, but right now it says I can't send them unless I'm running a challenge so I'm assuming that secret_mutant is a type of challenge and that they would be able to invite the members who don't have AO3 accounts. Otherwise, they'd be excluding people from being able to participate by moving it to AO3 without the option for all those who want to participate to do so. But I don't really know because the McFassy Fests are the only things I've really attempted.

[luninosity]

My teacher has a habit of saying "you should have learned this in 1101" but since I didn't take it, I didn't learn it.

Oh, that is frustrating! But that's a point when you can legitimately ask for help--because you didn't learn it, and you didn't because you were good enough to have tested into your course! No need to worry about the asking for assistance. Not embarrassing to be awesome, right?

Four classes? Are they three-unit classes? Which sounds...odd to me, but possible! (I'm probably not the best person to give advice about courseload; I regularly did 20-unit quarters as an undergrad, but then I was also a double major...) But that does sound like a good plan, about next semester; more creative courses should be a bit less rigorous, I'd think. (Not easier necessarily, but less regimented.)

Yep, the challenge mods have some invites--so I've got one! :-) Now to figure out how to copy over some fic...

[shayzgirl]

I did get to talk to her before class and she said she's terrible at forgetting not everyone takes 1101 and that apparently two other classmates are like me. I'm just the only one asking for help.

Unit? IDK if they're unit. I know they're three credits and we have to have 12 credits to be full-time per semester so I qualify. If I can stay full-time through the year than this summer I can still get my wisdom teeth out without having to fit it into time off through school (like this semester we have Thanksgiving off and then break between semesters for Christmas and New Years and I'd rather not have surgery on my mouth during those holidays when I eat food like pie and ham). I am thinking of taking my pre-college level math class (it's the math I tested into because I am not good at math) which I know will help me use more of my brain than my current classes are requiring me to use.

Yay! I was reminded today that AO3 had to make some changes because so many people moved over to AO3 after fanfiction.net finally said they were going to remove fic that violated their rules (such as nc17 fic). At least they have the option for challenge mods to invite members who need it. I've just recently learned of the import from LJ (and other urls apparently) option. It does make it easier to import all chapters of one fic that might be posted separately (which I know you have a few of) and the ability to set warnings, tags, fandoms per AO3's settings. I haven't used it yet since I already post all my fic there by the standard copy and paste method, but I may attempt it next time since it takes me so long to post fic between AO3 and LJ (especially when LJ likes to muck up my formatting so I'm fixing it several times before final posting).