Daft woman...
There are days when I'm motivated and there are days when I'm not. Today was one of those days.
Sometimes I have days where I'm motivated for a short while, but not even for a little while was I motivated to do anything today. I am not even motivated to go outside and connect with the earth like I've been doing. I almost fell asleep putting the baby to bed tonight, tired enough to consider it. I'm looking forward to when the tiredness lifts. It's difficult to walk through every single day with a cloak of fatigue resting around you. Unfortunately I know it takes almost a whole month before the thyroxine will kick in and I have to be on the iron for a month so obviously it'll take that long for that to repair itself. Even then I have such issues with sleep interruption I doubt I'll ever get enough to feel awake.
It's this corner I sit in though I swear. Yesterday I just couldn't sit here, it was driving me insane. It felt like the depression corner of nothingness. Like if I sat here I would do nothing all damn day. So instead I avoided sitting here for as much as I could. Surprisingly got a lot done. Funny that when you don't sit on your arse all day you actually get stuff done o.O Sometimes my daftness surprises even me...
Sometimes I have days where I'm motivated for a short while, but not even for a little while was I motivated to do anything today. I am not even motivated to go outside and connect with the earth like I've been doing. I almost fell asleep putting the baby to bed tonight, tired enough to consider it. I'm looking forward to when the tiredness lifts. It's difficult to walk through every single day with a cloak of fatigue resting around you. Unfortunately I know it takes almost a whole month before the thyroxine will kick in and I have to be on the iron for a month so obviously it'll take that long for that to repair itself. Even then I have such issues with sleep interruption I doubt I'll ever get enough to feel awake.
It's this corner I sit in though I swear. Yesterday I just couldn't sit here, it was driving me insane. It felt like the depression corner of nothingness. Like if I sat here I would do nothing all damn day. So instead I avoided sitting here for as much as I could. Surprisingly got a lot done. Funny that when you don't sit on your arse all day you actually get stuff done o.O Sometimes my daftness surprises even me...