Strange Days
Things have been feeling very cosmic as of late. A lot of weird coincidences, psychic moments, bizarre connections. Change is in the air! There's a teeny chance I might be getting a new job, thus allowing me to leave the horrendous one I've been at for almost 2 1/2 years...I don't want to jinx it, but here's hoping. I had my tarot cards read, and APPARENTLY I'm in for a big financial gain in the next few months, let's hope she's right about that. And she said I was going to break my lease, let's hope that means I'll get one of the low income housing lotteries I applied for.
I'm reading a memoir called "The Kiss", it's about a girl who grows up not knowing her dad, and then when she reunites with him when she's 20, he ends up totally manipulating her into having a sexual relationship with him...it's really disturbing, but effective. I'd recommend it to anyone who doesn't shy away from perverse things.
I had a meeting today with the director of my theater company about taking over for 3 months while he shoots his movie! It's kind of terrifying, kind of a lot of responsibility, but it'll be a good experience I think. Perhaps it will prove to myself that I am actually capable of doing real things without someone telling me what to do at every turn. It's been so long since I've been in any position of power (last time was...my tyrannical childhood?) I'm wondering if the beast will resurface. Probably not, one would hope that I've matured since age 11, at least a little. Somehow I don't think shouting at people, saying they can't be a part of the play simply because I don't like them, would go over so well.
I'm afraid to get excited about anything, because there's a part of me that thinks that if I do, I'll be sorely disappointed. So I'm trying to rationally remain positive, but not veer towards reckless optimism.
I'm reading a memoir called "The Kiss", it's about a girl who grows up not knowing her dad, and then when she reunites with him when she's 20, he ends up totally manipulating her into having a sexual relationship with him...it's really disturbing, but effective. I'd recommend it to anyone who doesn't shy away from perverse things.
I had a meeting today with the director of my theater company about taking over for 3 months while he shoots his movie! It's kind of terrifying, kind of a lot of responsibility, but it'll be a good experience I think. Perhaps it will prove to myself that I am actually capable of doing real things without someone telling me what to do at every turn. It's been so long since I've been in any position of power (last time was...my tyrannical childhood?) I'm wondering if the beast will resurface. Probably not, one would hope that I've matured since age 11, at least a little. Somehow I don't think shouting at people, saying they can't be a part of the play simply because I don't like them, would go over so well.
I'm afraid to get excited about anything, because there's a part of me that thinks that if I do, I'll be sorely disappointed. So I'm trying to rationally remain positive, but not veer towards reckless optimism.