it feels like someone has stabbed me through the heart and sucked out my soul...
so...this past weekend was hella kool, chillin with friends and havin fun and such...then tuesday came...and i read some things..that i wish i hadnt, because since yesterday at around 4 i havent been able to feel happy for more than 2 minutes at a time...the worst part is that when ever i think about it, it feels like someone has stabbed me through the heart and sucked out my soul...
i mean, i dont know why this is fucking me up so much, kuz like all of this happened before anything with us ever happened, but then...i dont even know...
im not even sure why im bringing this up and making a post about it, because i know that by the end of the week i will probably have dismissed it and be 'acting normal again'...
all i know is that i still love you, and wanna be with you...
also: angel, i know that uve been trying to protect me from things like this my whole life pretty much, and even tho u had nothing to do with this, it would appreciate it if you kould leave matters like this that involve me alone kuz, when uve told me things it dosent help me, if anything it hurts me more, kuz finding out things from you seems not liek youre trying to protect me,as much as youre trying to fuck things up for me...sorry if i sound like a dick, but thats how i feel.
i mean, i dont know why this is fucking me up so much, kuz like all of this happened before anything with us ever happened, but then...i dont even know...
im not even sure why im bringing this up and making a post about it, because i know that by the end of the week i will probably have dismissed it and be 'acting normal again'...
all i know is that i still love you, and wanna be with you...
also: angel, i know that uve been trying to protect me from things like this my whole life pretty much, and even tho u had nothing to do with this, it would appreciate it if you kould leave matters like this that involve me alone kuz, when uve told me things it dosent help me, if anything it hurts me more, kuz finding out things from you seems not liek youre trying to protect me,as much as youre trying to fuck things up for me...sorry if i sound like a dick, but thats how i feel.