i gave you the obvious...
so...today was graduation at carlmont. it was kool, got to see threee of my best friends graduate from high school. me and hollis brough the couch like planned and just about everyone that walked by commented on it, we where a landmark for people to find eachother "yeah im in the back, by the couch"...it was kool. then after we went to nick's house for a bit kuz he was havin a party, cept i didnt stay long, im so freakin exhausted its not even funny...crazy antics...crazy freakin antics...
but yeah...so now that everyone i know is out of highschool summer has officially started....shouldnt i be happy about this? i know i wrote about this thing in a recent entry...but still, it seems like every three years i lose my support group kinda....starting highschool...all my best friends went off to private skools, and the one that did go to elco, i rarely talk to, and he lives up the street from me...and now, b4 my senoir year, when i will most definetly need it the most, my group of friends go off to college...i dont blame you for this..if thats the impression youre getting..thats not my intention....
oh well...apperantly nothing is wrong with me...its just all in my head...thats what im being told by some people...that im not depressed and that i dont feel sad most of the time when im not with people...but the thing is, i am...and thats why whenever i post an entry here all my "how im feeling" things are always 'sad' or 'depressed', its because i only post when i have nothing better to do with my life, and i need somthing to fill the void of not being with people, that maybe talking about hanging out with friends and having good times will make me feel better...fuck it...whats the point anymore....
but yeah...so now that everyone i know is out of highschool summer has officially started....shouldnt i be happy about this? i know i wrote about this thing in a recent entry...but still, it seems like every three years i lose my support group kinda....starting highschool...all my best friends went off to private skools, and the one that did go to elco, i rarely talk to, and he lives up the street from me...and now, b4 my senoir year, when i will most definetly need it the most, my group of friends go off to college...i dont blame you for this..if thats the impression youre getting..thats not my intention....
oh well...apperantly nothing is wrong with me...its just all in my head...thats what im being told by some people...that im not depressed and that i dont feel sad most of the time when im not with people...but the thing is, i am...and thats why whenever i post an entry here all my "how im feeling" things are always 'sad' or 'depressed', its because i only post when i have nothing better to do with my life, and i need somthing to fill the void of not being with people, that maybe talking about hanging out with friends and having good times will make me feel better...fuck it...whats the point anymore....