*not going to stop giving a damn* I know you've been pretty... bleh... since the trip to see Colin, but you really need to find some way to get passed it. Love hurts, life is a bitch sometimes, but there are reasons to keep going. I think in some ways you made Colin your entire world, just like I had with David. We both got slapped by reality in that regard, but because of that blow by reality I was able to save myself for once. You think I didn't want that fairy tale? Someone (namely David) to come in and rescue me have a family and live happily ever after? That's exactly what I wanted... and yea it crushed me when I realized I'd been kidding myself, but it also openned another door for me. *shrug*
Happily ever after isn't handed over on a silver platter, it's something to be achieved. A goal you set and work toward. If it was easy to obtain it wouldn't be worth dreaming about. It wouldn't be worth having.
I used to think I was settling when it came to Michael, but the last few months have shown me that it isn't that at all... Happily Ever After is just a work in progress and up until recently we hadn't been working for it. Sure I still complain from time to time, but really this is the best we've ever been before and I'm happy.
The point is, just because Colin couldn't be your knight in shining armor and come in and rescue you, doesn't mean that Happily Ever After is a lost cause. Other people are out there too, and no one, not even you, knows what the future is going to bring... besides... I've never really thought of you as the damsal in distress type. Someday someone is gonna come along and together you guys are going to save EACH OTHER. But it'll never happen if you keep yourself locked away from the world, hiding out in your apartment and behind a game of threshold. Life can be painful, you know that as well as anyone, I'm sure... but would the idea of happiness, or the moments of happiness you've had in life mean anywhere near as much to you had you not experienced that pain?
Things worth having are worth fighting for. You show me where it says it's an easy fight or a short fight and I'll show you a liar. It's hard, and often it's long but when the fight's won- it's worth it:)
*hugs* I'm done rambling now. No really, I am I promise. No more rambling from me. My lips are sealed or my fingers are stationary or whatever. Yup that's me, no more rambling what so ever. The clicking of the keys on my keyboard will be no longer. No more rambling. I'm done. No really I am... Seriously:)
Happily ever after isn't handed over on a silver platter, it's something to be achieved. A goal you set and work toward. If it was easy to obtain it wouldn't be worth dreaming about. It wouldn't be worth having.
I used to think I was settling when it came to Michael, but the last few months have shown me that it isn't that at all... Happily Ever After is just a work in progress and up until recently we hadn't been working for it. Sure I still complain from time to time, but really this is the best we've ever been before and I'm happy.
The point is, just because Colin couldn't be your knight in shining armor and come in and rescue you, doesn't mean that Happily Ever After is a lost cause. Other people are out there too, and no one, not even you, knows what the future is going to bring... besides... I've never really thought of you as the damsal in distress type. Someday someone is gonna come along and together you guys are going to save EACH OTHER. But it'll never happen if you keep yourself locked away from the world, hiding out in your apartment and behind a game of threshold. Life can be painful, you know that as well as anyone, I'm sure... but would the idea of happiness, or the moments of happiness you've had in life mean anywhere near as much to you had you not experienced that pain?
Things worth having are worth fighting for. You show me where it says it's an easy fight or a short fight and I'll show you a liar. It's hard, and often it's long but when the fight's won- it's worth it:)
*hugs* I'm done rambling now. No really, I am I promise. No more rambling from me. My lips are sealed or my fingers are stationary or whatever. Yup that's me, no more rambling what so ever. The clicking of the keys on my keyboard will be no longer. No more rambling. I'm done. No really I am... Seriously:)
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