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well, the summer is coming to a close. a LOT has happened to me over the course of these few months. a lot has changed for me, and it leaves me in a totally new comfort zone, that i am still trying to adjust to....i don't really know how my next year is going to play out.
i made a lot of new connections with people this summer and overall it was the happiest i've been in a really long time. i finally started living for me and doing things that made me happy. true, i may have pushed my parents back a little bit and i'm sorry for that, but i knew that once school started back i wouldn't be able to have this much fun with my whole posse of friends.
i actually hung out with people this summer. a lot. and it was really great. for once i felt like there wasa group of people that enjoyed being around me and that i could have a laid back time with. i moved back in with my parents, and i no longer live with tyler. which ...i'm still trying to deal with that whole change and moving on. but i know it has to happen. i just wasnt happy anymore. i never felt/feel like anything lasts forever. especially now. as happy and in love as you may be now....it will all eventually end. and you just have to move on. i think i've come to terms with that and that's why i feel its ok to just move on and not look back too much. its not that easy for some people.
ok...i'll stop randomly rambling....point is...this was one of the best summers of my life. my time with jesse, heather, alaina, and clay....and all my other good friends i've made...i just really feel like for once i don't need an unheathly relationship to lean back on to make me feel loved.
i don't know where im going with this.
summer's over. and i will really really miss it. its time for me to grow up a little bit and be a senior and graduate. *sigh*
until next time LJ land.
<3
i made a lot of new connections with people this summer and overall it was the happiest i've been in a really long time. i finally started living for me and doing things that made me happy. true, i may have pushed my parents back a little bit and i'm sorry for that, but i knew that once school started back i wouldn't be able to have this much fun with my whole posse of friends.
i actually hung out with people this summer. a lot. and it was really great. for once i felt like there wasa group of people that enjoyed being around me and that i could have a laid back time with. i moved back in with my parents, and i no longer live with tyler. which ...i'm still trying to deal with that whole change and moving on. but i know it has to happen. i just wasnt happy anymore. i never felt/feel like anything lasts forever. especially now. as happy and in love as you may be now....it will all eventually end. and you just have to move on. i think i've come to terms with that and that's why i feel its ok to just move on and not look back too much. its not that easy for some people.
ok...i'll stop randomly rambling....point is...this was one of the best summers of my life. my time with jesse, heather, alaina, and clay....and all my other good friends i've made...i just really feel like for once i don't need an unheathly relationship to lean back on to make me feel loved.
i don't know where im going with this.
summer's over. and i will really really miss it. its time for me to grow up a little bit and be a senior and graduate. *sigh*
until next time LJ land.
<3