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i think too often in life people are lead to believe that if they cannot currently get along with someone then that means what they had never really was special or what they though it was.
confusing?
let me explain
i have had so many relationships with people that all of sudden, one day, just fizzled. no one can be sure the cause...or maybe it was just 39257 things piled into one. i never see these people anymore, or hardly, and i definately don't hang out with any of them anymore because it seems as though the connection we once had is gone.
but. i don't like that. i don't want my life to be like that.
lately i've been thinking a lot about what my wedding will be like, and who will be in it. and whenever i list off who i want to be bridesmaids and such, people around me are astonished that i would pick certain people considering i never even talk to them anymore.
but that's not the point.
i had relationships with these people. very close relationships. i opened up everything i was, and i really value what we had. i miss the good times with you. sitting around laughing our heads off at god knows what at 3AM. you cared for me like no other friend had before. it was so new to me, and yes, i'm guilty of not appreciating you for that. i see you these days, and hear your intoxicating laugh and i just wonder....why? why did things fizzle like they did? it was probably a combination of things. and we may never be able to be truly the way we were. "the couple". but that doesn't change the fact that you were a big part of my life. you are the reason i am who i am today. you taught me so much about myself. i think we taught each other a lot about the world.
and i want you to know that i don't hold anything against you, i don't have an unreasonable grudge, and i don't just ignore you. i feel awkward because things just aren't the same anymore. but i guess what i'm just trying to say, what i just want you to know is....i miss you. and i miss how things were with me and you, and i hate that this combination or things had made things the way they are now. and if i ever do get married....you'll be a fucking bridesmaid. and you're cute little sisters will be there too.
i love you girl.
confusing?
let me explain
i have had so many relationships with people that all of sudden, one day, just fizzled. no one can be sure the cause...or maybe it was just 39257 things piled into one. i never see these people anymore, or hardly, and i definately don't hang out with any of them anymore because it seems as though the connection we once had is gone.
but. i don't like that. i don't want my life to be like that.
lately i've been thinking a lot about what my wedding will be like, and who will be in it. and whenever i list off who i want to be bridesmaids and such, people around me are astonished that i would pick certain people considering i never even talk to them anymore.
but that's not the point.
i had relationships with these people. very close relationships. i opened up everything i was, and i really value what we had. i miss the good times with you. sitting around laughing our heads off at god knows what at 3AM. you cared for me like no other friend had before. it was so new to me, and yes, i'm guilty of not appreciating you for that. i see you these days, and hear your intoxicating laugh and i just wonder....why? why did things fizzle like they did? it was probably a combination of things. and we may never be able to be truly the way we were. "the couple". but that doesn't change the fact that you were a big part of my life. you are the reason i am who i am today. you taught me so much about myself. i think we taught each other a lot about the world.
and i want you to know that i don't hold anything against you, i don't have an unreasonable grudge, and i don't just ignore you. i feel awkward because things just aren't the same anymore. but i guess what i'm just trying to say, what i just want you to know is....i miss you. and i miss how things were with me and you, and i hate that this combination or things had made things the way they are now. and if i ever do get married....you'll be a fucking bridesmaid. and you're cute little sisters will be there too.
i love you girl.