relig discussions..... blah
....its interesting what makes the world go round for people.. believe it or not, for me, ... i don't know, what i do know, is that i think i haven't been open enough with the people i've gotten to know over the past years.... obviously my faith runs deep, evidenced by today (breakdown... at school) <== BOO!!.... anyways, the truth of it is, that yes, i am very 'religious' and i believe very strongly in what i do... i may not be the best at "letting things slide" when it comes to my faith, but i think i'm a pretty accepting person, until i feel someone has insulted me.. ina sense.... today was hard... i actually cried at school. i don't do that... at least not usually... things got outta hand... i wanted to leave, but i didn't want to seem weak, i was alone in there... in a sense..... no one aggreed with me... and everyone... seemed to be in opposition to my view... at least to an extent..... one of the reasons i've never dated anyone is because they have to be the same as me to even be in the running.... I can't imagine myself with someone who wouldn't understand that whole aspect of my life.... and not just understand it.... but believe it, and love it, and embrace me.... i may live my life alone, i hope not, that's one of my biggest fears,... but i won't settle.
I think, at least in the last years i've done a pretty good job at not pushing my views on other people, its only when i feel threatened that i become like i was today.. defensive and unreasonable... i hate that... but i don't see that reaction changing.... i took this course to learn more, to find ways to relate to people, to expand my knowledge... i don't want to convert.. which is what that discussion definately seems like its almost all about..... i try to walk the walk.... perfection... all that jazz. i know i fail miserably.... but, i'm trying...
To love the Lord our God is the heartbeat of our mission, the spring from which our service overflows..... accross the street, all around the world, the mission's still the same, we'll CRAVE and LIVE the truth in Jesus name...