See, there was this girl I had an embarrassing crush on a while back (and no one I crush on EVER gets to know unless they accidentally find out or I tell them years later) . Just when I thought I was over her I got to know this guy, and I had sex with him (I don't regret it or anything, it was more like 'shit I've wasted nineteen years of my life okay let's do it'. I just kind of hate that guys only ever seem to like me when I'm on the rebound and I'm desperate and insecure enough to sort of go with it even if I'm not really THAT into them). He seemed to be really into me but I only saw him twice since and I haven't heard from him in two weeks. And now there's this girl in my class, who is basically amazing, but idk she's not my type and I don't really have a crush on her I just think she's great and want her to think I'm great as well.
And then I'm starting to doubt if I'm really, REALLY over the first girl (it can take a while before I'm really over someone. I think it's done, and then I like them again, and then I'm over them, and then I like them again...)
See, there was this girl I had an embarrassing crush on a while back (and no one I crush on EVER gets to know unless they accidentally find out or I tell them years later) .
Just when I thought I was over her I got to know this guy, and I had sex with him (I don't regret it or anything, it was more like 'shit I've wasted nineteen years of my life okay let's do it'. I just kind of hate that guys only ever seem to like me when I'm on the rebound and I'm desperate and insecure enough to sort of go with it even if I'm not really THAT into them). He seemed to be really into me but I only saw him twice since and I haven't heard from him in two weeks.
And now there's this girl in my class, who is basically amazing, but idk she's not my type and I don't really have a crush on her I just think she's great and want her to think I'm great as well.
And then I'm starting to doubt if I'm really, REALLY over the first girl (it can take a while before I'm really over someone. I think it's done, and then I like them again, and then I'm over them, and then I like them again...)
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