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Im not even sure where to start. I have so much on my mind. This has been one of the most depressing weeks of my life. I mean that in all seriousness. I think this is going to be one of those weeks that change my life. Make me seriously think about things. One thing that i've decided for sure is anyone who stood me up or hurt my feeling this weekend is gone. GONE. I got stood up probably by everyone i know last nigt. We had a get together and almost all my friends said they'd show up and they didn't. My friend Alesia showed up and that was it. Alex lives across the street, AND he said he'd show up and he didnt even CALL to say he couldn't come. After everything.... he could have atleast called, but you know what. I knew he was going to do that and im not surprised. Shae had her baby and Carol was working. I went to the most hell'ish bbq with esmy on friday and she couldn't even come to this. B/c she is to busy inserting herself in her g/f's anus. I've known her to long to say that im done with her but as of right now she can pretty much fuck herself. Im so glad Jess is going to be here again next weekend. And even though I wanna choke Tina most of the time im so glad i have a friend like her that will come pick my drunkass up in the middle of the night and keep me at her house. IM so glad that i have a friend like her that wont let me leave when im so drunk im pissing outside and throwing my cell phone all over. I am just so dissapointed. I cant even begin to explain. I dont think i wanna talk to any of those people for a while. That includes the girls at school that i went out with on Thursday. Especially Dana.....for......well.....i wont even get into that. Its my stupid fault for even letting feelings get involved there. All i could see is how beautiful she is. SHe isnt pretty inside and she could never care about me. She said it herself its infatuation. I haven't been home in 8 days now and thats where im heading. I miss my dad alot. SO much i could almost cry. Yesterday we were in Galveston for a split second and i remembered when i lived there. Suzi asked me if i missed it, and i said for the most part no i dont, but sometimes i do, b/c i think at some point it could have been the happiest i ever was. And thats sad. I need to get my priorities straight and get my life back on track. Im going to do so well after school, getting THROUGH school is what is difficult. So i hav eto go home now and study 8 chapters for my big test out test tomorrow. Sorry for my depressing update.