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Had a period of a little depression and negativity there, but i'm bouncing back. Not exactly cheerful and happy like i was before, but i'm fighting my way out of it, and quite successfully i think.
I'm working on a new attitude towards other people. I've always been interested in drugs and sex and things taboo. Well, not "always", but you get it. I'm one of those people that knows a lot about drugs, but doesn't actually do them all (granted i've forgotten a lot D:), may seem sex-crazed, but i actually don't care much to have it, and so on. But at the same time, there's this prim and proper side that has to behave well and be a good person and so on and so forth, and so while i allowed myself to have the interest in learning about things, i held back when it came to actually doing it because it wasn't "right". And i think that extended to other people, and i would get annoyed by their behavior, wonder why they're so stupid, etc. But you know what? I'm just not going to care anymore. I love to think about why some people are actually okay with "crazy" and "extreme" behavior because it's really interesting why humans do the things they do, but i'm never going to understand it all completely, so why try? Yeah, maybe i don't approve of drinking like crazy, whoring yourself around, and showing up back home at 5am wearing no pants or whatever, and maybe i don't understand why someone would do that, but it doesn't matter. It's not my life, so i shouldn't use my standards, beliefs, and opinions to judge it. Besides, there's nothing actually wrong with any of it. Different people just have different ways of going about life, and different people value different things. Simple as that. Yes i can look at someone and go "you're so irresponsible, you need to be more grounded" and so on, but that's not fair. Yeah, I need to be responsible and worry about the future and prepare for it, but no one else has to because not everyone else has that concern. It doesn't necessarily work for them, so i shouldn't expect it to.
I'm working on a new attitude towards other people. I've always been interested in drugs and sex and things taboo. Well, not "always", but you get it. I'm one of those people that knows a lot about drugs, but doesn't actually do them all (granted i've forgotten a lot D:), may seem sex-crazed, but i actually don't care much to have it, and so on. But at the same time, there's this prim and proper side that has to behave well and be a good person and so on and so forth, and so while i allowed myself to have the interest in learning about things, i held back when it came to actually doing it because it wasn't "right". And i think that extended to other people, and i would get annoyed by their behavior, wonder why they're so stupid, etc. But you know what? I'm just not going to care anymore. I love to think about why some people are actually okay with "crazy" and "extreme" behavior because it's really interesting why humans do the things they do, but i'm never going to understand it all completely, so why try? Yeah, maybe i don't approve of drinking like crazy, whoring yourself around, and showing up back home at 5am wearing no pants or whatever, and maybe i don't understand why someone would do that, but it doesn't matter. It's not my life, so i shouldn't use my standards, beliefs, and opinions to judge it. Besides, there's nothing actually wrong with any of it. Different people just have different ways of going about life, and different people value different things. Simple as that. Yes i can look at someone and go "you're so irresponsible, you need to be more grounded" and so on, but that's not fair. Yeah, I need to be responsible and worry about the future and prepare for it, but no one else has to because not everyone else has that concern. It doesn't necessarily work for them, so i shouldn't expect it to.