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Encyclopedias are ungainly.
I mean, why would anyone want to use a real, honest to goodness cover-and-pages encyclopedia? In print they are giant--even if you wanted to use one, it would take you forever just to find what you were looking for. Online they make more sense, of course, but still--who needs all of that information? More importantly, who has time to read through the entire article on whatever it is they're interested in?
Okay. So. I know that was random. But my English teacher has a bookshelf full of a single encyclopedia, in English, and I honestly do not get the point of that.
And this is utter randomness, due to the fact that, if I could be any more bored…well, I really don't think I could be any more bored. This seems to be a trend in English class. I honestly don't think I've learned any English, which probably will not be a good thing once the first test comes up. I know I'll suffer for not paying attention…and though I don't want to have to pay attention in English, I know I'll have to start paying attention at some point in the future so that I can keep up my grade.
But, gosh darn it, I don't want to pay attention. I don't think I should have to pay attention if I don't want to pay attention.
I complained to Grandma about that last night. She was quiet for a moment before saying, "What if no one had to do things which they didn't want to do?"
"I think that would be great," I said, completely and utterly meaning it. Okay, so it was a little exaggerated and spiteful, but I was tired.
"So if I didn't want to work," Grandma began, "I wouldn't have to? I shouldn't have to listen to the boring people in this world, or the people I don't like? Should I have to be nice? Am I required to extend any form of common courtesy?
I was quiet.
"If you start to think like that," she said, her tone kind but still with an edge to it, "you're falling in step with the rest of the population. You've got to remember--if you don't care about other people…why should other people have to care about you?"
I've been thinking about that a bit. Am I a caring person? The scary thing is, I'm not sure. I mean, Dara is nice. She helps people. She's always smiling. Stel is nice. I mean, she seems antagonistic to other people at times, but she always helps be and Dara with homework we don't understand. She is always the helpful sort of nice- -she tutors after school, and I know that she often helps her siblings with their homework.
But what do I do? Do I have to be always doing nice things in order to be a good person? Am I ever doing particularly nice things for others?
I don't know. Usually, I think I'm not really a bad person. But lately I have been examining my friends and their behavior more than usual, and in comparison, I find myself inadequate. When your friends are so amazing, it makes it difficult to feel that amazing yourself.
But really, this isn't something I have the time to worry about. "If there were worlds enough, and time…" At least, I think that's how the phrase goes. Whatever. I don't care. I'm going to try to pay attention in class now.
I mean, why would anyone want to use a real, honest to goodness cover-and-pages encyclopedia? In print they are giant--even if you wanted to use one, it would take you forever just to find what you were looking for. Online they make more sense, of course, but still--who needs all of that information? More importantly, who has time to read through the entire article on whatever it is they're interested in?
Okay. So. I know that was random. But my English teacher has a bookshelf full of a single encyclopedia, in English, and I honestly do not get the point of that.
And this is utter randomness, due to the fact that, if I could be any more bored…well, I really don't think I could be any more bored. This seems to be a trend in English class. I honestly don't think I've learned any English, which probably will not be a good thing once the first test comes up. I know I'll suffer for not paying attention…and though I don't want to have to pay attention in English, I know I'll have to start paying attention at some point in the future so that I can keep up my grade.
But, gosh darn it, I don't want to pay attention. I don't think I should have to pay attention if I don't want to pay attention.
I complained to Grandma about that last night. She was quiet for a moment before saying, "What if no one had to do things which they didn't want to do?"
"I think that would be great," I said, completely and utterly meaning it. Okay, so it was a little exaggerated and spiteful, but I was tired.
"So if I didn't want to work," Grandma began, "I wouldn't have to? I shouldn't have to listen to the boring people in this world, or the people I don't like? Should I have to be nice? Am I required to extend any form of common courtesy?
I was quiet.
"If you start to think like that," she said, her tone kind but still with an edge to it, "you're falling in step with the rest of the population. You've got to remember--if you don't care about other people…why should other people have to care about you?"
I've been thinking about that a bit. Am I a caring person? The scary thing is, I'm not sure. I mean, Dara is nice. She helps people. She's always smiling. Stel is nice. I mean, she seems antagonistic to other people at times, but she always helps be and Dara with homework we don't understand. She is always the helpful sort of nice- -she tutors after school, and I know that she often helps her siblings with their homework.
But what do I do? Do I have to be always doing nice things in order to be a good person? Am I ever doing particularly nice things for others?
I don't know. Usually, I think I'm not really a bad person. But lately I have been examining my friends and their behavior more than usual, and in comparison, I find myself inadequate. When your friends are so amazing, it makes it difficult to feel that amazing yourself.
But really, this isn't something I have the time to worry about. "If there were worlds enough, and time…" At least, I think that's how the phrase goes. Whatever. I don't care. I'm going to try to pay attention in class now.