i can't stop the tears...i can't stop the pain...

[lunarmouse]

It happened...

the thing i've been fearing for weeks now has happened...

it was so quick...

i tried to reason my way out of it...

to make it seem like it could get better...

but he won in the end...

and i lost big...

i lost forever...

i havn't stopped crying since...

i don't think i want to go back to school...

i think i want to never do anything again...

I feel like i've been hit in the head a thousand times, while being stabbed in the heart, and kicked in the nuts...

will somebody please just end this misery? this existence is more painful than i want to bear...

this year has started off to be the worst yet...

i don't know how it could be worse...

and i don't think it will get any better...