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[lunarian]

Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday Dear me.
Happy Birthday to me.
I came see,
Nothing is free.

A cruddy birthday I had,
Not a soul remembered it.
It all made me feel bad.
I played it off with my wit,
I faked my delight,
To show it was alright,
It wasn't so.
A tear was shed,
No motivation to go.

Here I sat as the day drifted by
And yes, it's true,
I did cry.
A pansy through and through.

This wasn't the first of years.
Nor was it the first of tears.
Maybe one day,
I'll lead a life worthwhile.
Maybe one day,
I'll have people see that I am something special.
Maybe one day,
Maybe one day...

Thanks to those who wished me a Happy Birthday. I know it's not always on ya'll schedule and a rememberece is needed. I can't say my mind is the best, so I guess I'm being hypocritical. A few years of this running though gets to a guy. I just hope one day, I'll be worthy of rememberence. I'm tired. Really tired. I feel down not because of my brithday (Though it added to it) but the fact that I can't help out someone special when problems arise. My body is shivering... I'm not cold. My eyes hurt ... but they're moistened. I try to be the best that I can be.
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I'm not good enough...
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Am I Emo? O.o