... Why?
Mwehehehe!
So the truth is out!!!
Well, that was fun. Why is fun only temporary?I play a game. Thats fun. A friend comes over. Thats fun. I have so much fun but I feel like absolute shit. Why is a depression sinking in? I'm loved. I love. I should be happy. What the hell is wrong with me? I feel so alone. Alone.. like I did when I first started my jounral a couple years ago. I ddon't like this feelng. I don't want to be missing what is that keeps me from havintg this feeling. I'm happy to everyone. I try and brighten people's days. I do what I can to make usre that they are happy even if it means sacrificing whatever it is I have. I show happiness. How much longer will I have to wear this mask? When can I truly be happy? When can I go without having to worry about such things? I don't fear but a few things, and this is something I don't understand.. but... I'm scared...