2nd to last thing I post here, hopefully. Maybe even last.
The bright blue smoke is clearing, the dust is settling, and a feeling of peaceful routine is beginning to shine on the nest. And that's one of the reasons I'm posting.
For once, I'm sleeping in a place that actually FEELS home-y, as opposed to a 100 square foot bastion against anything this world tries to spit at me. As per usual, the vibes in my room are completely different from anywhere else in the place, but they don't feel like a hostile clash for once. More a quick, flowy gradient.
Oh, and for once, there's a cat that isn't utterly terrified of the energies of this place. Well... except maybe the alarm clock that she sent falling upon herself, LOUDLY. But that's another story.
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The whole bloody week's been weird. I've gained great respect for a couple businesses, lost all respect for another, had my checkbook pretty much recovered, and ended up watching someone more or less explode over the latter business. And damn I'm SO not used to that kind of explosive "This makes me mad SNARL!" energy. Havn't had to deal with it directly in 8 years.
The fighting over a certain job situation made me wonder if I'd made the wrong choice moving here a couple times, but taking the good with the bad, I realize this is the best I could've done. I'll take this whirlwind of a life over former malignant, grimy-feeling "family life" any day. Just means having to get used to emotions other than consumerism and muted passive aggression. And perhaps learning to read them a bit better. >.>
Come to think of it, time to kiss this journal goodbye. I was gonna make a 'redirect' post, but the only people who actually READ it are about 60 feet away. There's much easier ways of giving the url.
For once, I'm sleeping in a place that actually FEELS home-y, as opposed to a 100 square foot bastion against anything this world tries to spit at me. As per usual, the vibes in my room are completely different from anywhere else in the place, but they don't feel like a hostile clash for once. More a quick, flowy gradient.
Oh, and for once, there's a cat that isn't utterly terrified of the energies of this place. Well... except maybe the alarm clock that she sent falling upon herself, LOUDLY. But that's another story.
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The whole bloody week's been weird. I've gained great respect for a couple businesses, lost all respect for another, had my checkbook pretty much recovered, and ended up watching someone more or less explode over the latter business. And damn I'm SO not used to that kind of explosive "This makes me mad SNARL!" energy. Havn't had to deal with it directly in 8 years.
The fighting over a certain job situation made me wonder if I'd made the wrong choice moving here a couple times, but taking the good with the bad, I realize this is the best I could've done. I'll take this whirlwind of a life over former malignant, grimy-feeling "family life" any day. Just means having to get used to emotions other than consumerism and muted passive aggression. And perhaps learning to read them a bit better. >.>
Come to think of it, time to kiss this journal goodbye. I was gonna make a 'redirect' post, but the only people who actually READ it are about 60 feet away. There's much easier ways of giving the url.