SLEEP
Okay, I have to be at work in nine and a half hours. if I go to sleep NOW I will get exactly enough rest and still have time to get ready for work. I need a car. My very own piece of shit running automatic. With shitty peeling paint, and bumperstickers galore. My little punk rock car. I'll name it... Lillian. LMAO. Uhhhhh.. I'm tired. My brain isn't functioning properly. Alex is so cute to me... His green eyes, his perfect little teeth... His beautiful bouncy curls... And still, I can't stand being in a relationship with him. Although I do feel somewhat affectionate towards him now... Like, I do want to maintain a friendship with him no matter what. I do love him... just not in a wifey way. I'm so scared though, of getting older and being alone, not just being able to settle. having to pull myself together, know myself, love myself.
I wish someone could just make everything allright. But like it said in the tarot reading brig gave me, the only person standing in my way is myself. I'm a damn stuborn fucking cow. MOOOO
I wish someone could just make everything allright. But like it said in the tarot reading brig gave me, the only person standing in my way is myself. I'm a damn stuborn fucking cow. MOOOO