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Have you ever been in a situation where you have to stop and take a second to think 'what am I doing here?' That happened to me today. Sometimes I don't know where my head is when I'm getting myself into something. It just doesn't really make sense.
I know you're going to leave.
Tomorrow is Scott's graduation at 8:30 in the morning, and I will be getting up at the ass crack of dawn to be there. Then our family is going out to lunch at the restaurant of his choice, then I'll be heading off to work. I've requested Friday and Saturday off, hopefully they should be good days.
I'm really tired of being everyone's second... blah... backup plan. I wish I had better, closer friends, but somehow, I just dont think I'm going to. It makes me really kinda sad and resentful. I dont understand why I can't build up a strong friendship with someone. I think maybe I push people away. Like, I really like hanging out with Tessa, but for some reason the things we plan to do never actually end up happening, which is really lame. Ana and I have hung out a couple of times outside of work, but she's so hard to arrange stuff with because she has such a hectic schedule. Oh well, I guess once summer school starts next monday I'll be busy enough with that and work that I'll be glad for some time on my own. But as for right now, I'm just a little down.
**** Just a little side note... what would you do if you felt as though someone close to you thought that everything you liked was stupid? I can't help but feel strange about liking the things I like when someone I really respect happens to think that they are stupid. :/ What am I doing???
I watched the premiere of the Simple Life 2, and i really think Nicole Richie is the shit, and hilarious, no matter what Tyson says.
someone gots my world, its falling down to curls, some selfish boy and girl, in careful webs they twirl... bitter's what u used to say, and vigor's what you stripped away...
I know you're going to leave.
Tomorrow is Scott's graduation at 8:30 in the morning, and I will be getting up at the ass crack of dawn to be there. Then our family is going out to lunch at the restaurant of his choice, then I'll be heading off to work. I've requested Friday and Saturday off, hopefully they should be good days.
I'm really tired of being everyone's second... blah... backup plan. I wish I had better, closer friends, but somehow, I just dont think I'm going to. It makes me really kinda sad and resentful. I dont understand why I can't build up a strong friendship with someone. I think maybe I push people away. Like, I really like hanging out with Tessa, but for some reason the things we plan to do never actually end up happening, which is really lame. Ana and I have hung out a couple of times outside of work, but she's so hard to arrange stuff with because she has such a hectic schedule. Oh well, I guess once summer school starts next monday I'll be busy enough with that and work that I'll be glad for some time on my own. But as for right now, I'm just a little down.
**** Just a little side note... what would you do if you felt as though someone close to you thought that everything you liked was stupid? I can't help but feel strange about liking the things I like when someone I really respect happens to think that they are stupid. :/ What am I doing???
I watched the premiere of the Simple Life 2, and i really think Nicole Richie is the shit, and hilarious, no matter what Tyson says.
someone gots my world, its falling down to curls, some selfish boy and girl, in careful webs they twirl... bitter's what u used to say, and vigor's what you stripped away...