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Ah, LJ.
So, I have been doing a bit of reflecting and inner-working thoughtfulness lately. Why I do the things I do. Why I choose to self-destruct, rather than be happy with people who make me happy. Why I don't try to do something more with myself. Why I get so grouchy.
I think I've come to the conclusion that I do, in fact, need a break from several aspects of my life. I have to stop trying to solve the mysteries of my past by jumping into the unknown full-force. I'm not sure what that is accomplishing. I try to embellish it by calling it "moving on, moving forward"... but really, it is just bad behavior that leaves me confused and irritated.
I have to concentrate on myself for a while. Who am I, and where have I gone?
Other news:
* pretty sure I fractured this toe yesterday. This will make for an uncomfortable week at rehearsal, to be sure.
* submitted three poems to the Gazette Literary Awards. This is me, pretending to exercise my skills.
* Got a callback for "Trailer Park". That's fun.
until later...
So, I have been doing a bit of reflecting and inner-working thoughtfulness lately. Why I do the things I do. Why I choose to self-destruct, rather than be happy with people who make me happy. Why I don't try to do something more with myself. Why I get so grouchy.
I think I've come to the conclusion that I do, in fact, need a break from several aspects of my life. I have to stop trying to solve the mysteries of my past by jumping into the unknown full-force. I'm not sure what that is accomplishing. I try to embellish it by calling it "moving on, moving forward"... but really, it is just bad behavior that leaves me confused and irritated.
I have to concentrate on myself for a while. Who am I, and where have I gone?
Other news:
* pretty sure I fractured this toe yesterday. This will make for an uncomfortable week at rehearsal, to be sure.
* submitted three poems to the Gazette Literary Awards. This is me, pretending to exercise my skills.
* Got a callback for "Trailer Park". That's fun.
until later...