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I feel really down this week and the gloomy weather is not helping me at all. I want to crawl right back into bed and pretend I don't exist for a few months.
I miss Karli. When she's not here I tend to black out and not remember what happened. Actually, let me rephrase that. When she's here at least she can recall my night for me when I black out and don't remember what happened. I don't black out often but when I do I feel really stupid.
I read somewhere that if your body decides it cannot handle the amount of alcohol you are drinking it will shut down and that's when you "black out". Scary, the idea of your body literally shutting down. But what I don't understand is how you continue to function? I didn't pass out in a random place, or collapse...
Work is too stressful. It's literally making me lose my mind right now. I can never relax, and when I try to I just drink too much. Who wants to come on vacation with me? Somewhere hot with beaches, ocean and absolutely no stress.
I miss Karli. When she's not here I tend to black out and not remember what happened. Actually, let me rephrase that. When she's here at least she can recall my night for me when I black out and don't remember what happened. I don't black out often but when I do I feel really stupid.
I read somewhere that if your body decides it cannot handle the amount of alcohol you are drinking it will shut down and that's when you "black out". Scary, the idea of your body literally shutting down. But what I don't understand is how you continue to function? I didn't pass out in a random place, or collapse...
Work is too stressful. It's literally making me lose my mind right now. I can never relax, and when I try to I just drink too much. Who wants to come on vacation with me? Somewhere hot with beaches, ocean and absolutely no stress.