crash & burn
Heading off to sweat my butt off in fencing practice. Back teeth are throbbing from temp bridge (and being drilled and poked and all that fun stuff).
I can't seem to pull myself together right now. Big pictures are overwhelming and the small steps feel like there are too many and I'm falling father and father behind.
Feels like I'm losing friends faster than I could ever make them, and I'm not even sure what I doing wrong.
Telling myself it doesn't matter doesn't work, because the simple truth is that it does matter.
Melee Madness is this weekend, and the truth is I'd actually prefer to skip the whole thing. But I've already made promises and right now, it feels like all I have left is my ability to be true to myself and true to my word.
So I'll keep all of my promises - even if the people to whom they were made no longer care.
I can't seem to pull myself together right now. Big pictures are overwhelming and the small steps feel like there are too many and I'm falling father and father behind.
Feels like I'm losing friends faster than I could ever make them, and I'm not even sure what I doing wrong.
Telling myself it doesn't matter doesn't work, because the simple truth is that it does matter.
Melee Madness is this weekend, and the truth is I'd actually prefer to skip the whole thing. But I've already made promises and right now, it feels like all I have left is my ability to be true to myself and true to my word.
So I'll keep all of my promises - even if the people to whom they were made no longer care.