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he t-thinks im beautiful?
i-i mean i know i am. of course i am! >////> have you seen me? ohoho.
but..its just..ah.. i-i've wondered if he'd ever say that or if i was always gonna be just "cute" and stuff.
..n-no, he's probably just saying that to make me feel better..cheer me up.. ;a; right..?
i've tried to keep my heart from falling or fluttering, but fucking shit, you make it hard. .w.
it feels impossible to stay offline. to distance myself. because im a big, confused coward who doesnt want to hurt and doesnt want to hurt anyone else, either.
...even if i do have a crush on them.<3
le sigh. oh, gosh, look at yourself, jess. ;//w//;
hes super cute. a few years younger than i am. funny and really smart and clever..
may also be moving here when he graduates from highschool, too, and thats a plus. :o
there are just so many questions that float around in my head..
i suppose its best for now to just to have fun where you can find it. but that sounds..careless. ~///~
im stuck between trying not to be too serious and trying not to have too much fun and just being myself.
regardless of his religion, god brought him into my life for a reason, right?
i sit here sometimes and wonder: if a person is a great person, whose loyal, faithful, and everything a parent and god could
want them to be, but arent religious, do they still not go to heaven? .__. what happens then?
i know that theres a god..but i always wonder about things like this during times like these.