Unforgettable
Tonight, I just want to go home.
Go back to the silence.
Back to my sheltered world, to my oblivion.
Lonely nights of sad sins.
Conversations with the wind and muffled tears.
Speed and breeze, dim lights and emptiness.
It’ll be just like putting the shackles back on.
Replacing the rope around my neck and getting closer to the edge.
Its like rising from the dead, living for the first time and having to die again.
Anything, to be away from you.
Away from the way you whisper in my ear.
Far from your name and your voice.
Erase the image of your face, the recognition of your presence, erase everything from my memory.
And it’ll be like I never met you.
I’m sure you’ll manage without me.
As I rise from the ground I’ll leave you behind.
Leave every particle that moves inside me with each breath you take.
I’ll forget every time you made me smile and everyday you shocked my skin.
Farther and higher I'll go until my heart beats slower and only the taste of you is on my tongue and smell of you is on my hands.
And I’ll jump into the sea, let it swallow us whole until I can’t breathe.
Darkness.
I’ll twist and turn in my unconsciousness, trying to grasp on to the fragments of you just before the sun rises.
Daylight will find me in my bed and when I open my eyes you’ll be gone,just a broken, distant dream.
Inexplicably relieved, I’ll breathe and lick my lips.
Skin,coffee and cigarettes.