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okay, everyone. you're in for a fairly long entry. more than my usual minimal few sentances.
first off, merry christmas everyone. :)
now that that's out of the way, i guess i'll say what happened today. i'm one of those people who can never sleep on christmas eve. and you can probably imagine how much harder is was for me to sleep, when i was younger and thought santa could be in my living room and i would miss him. so, at around 6:30 in the morning, i go to wake my mom and chris up. they made me wait until daylight, but whatever. 6:30 is the earliest i have been up since last christmas...
so we go to the family room to open our presents, and chris like flipped when she opened the things i got her. my mom's favorite movie is the wizard of oz. she's always saying how that's the only movie she can watch over and over again... so, i got her the special edition dvd, and it always makes me really happy to see that when i give people their gifts, that they enjoyed it. the thing i really love about christmas more than any other holiday is that it makes people so happy. it's not just material things like gifts, its what the gift symbolizes. it's the fact that the person who picked it out was thinking of you. that's what i care about the most. to tell you the truth, as much of a christmas whore i am, i could really care less how many gifts i get, or how much people spend on me. what i care about is the fact that someone cared enough to get me something.
so anyway, i'll probably post pictures of my gifts tomorrow, because i need to put them in the 0h_s0_em0 community anyway.
dallas came over around 1:30 or 2 to exchange our gifts. holy fucking hell she got me a skateboard from white sands! oh my god i just about flipped when i saw it. that was such an awesome gift, i cant even begin to explain. the only problem is that in my opinion, i didnt get her anything near as nice. i feel really bad, because i cant afford to get anyone things like that for gifts. i know i said that i dont care how much people spend on me, as long as they're thinking of me, but i always feel bad about things like this... i cant really explain why.
dallas is my best friend in the entire world, and i would seriously give my life for her in a second, and i feel like i'm being a really shitty friend, because we'll be in the mall and i'll be short on something i'm buying and she'll always give me the extra money. and i always feel bad because, i'm pretty much poor as fuck, especially now, thanks to the $20,000 medical bill just for vista del mar. i guess i feel bad, 'cause its like, she might be short on something, and i'll never be able to loan her money. i'll never be the one to loan her money when she needs it, because i'll probably never be able to afford it.
now onto a happier subject about today...
after dallas left, my mom, chris, and i went to chris's mom's house to open more presents, and to eat dinner. oh my god, i seriously love chris's family so much! there were people related to chris that i have never even met, coming over, and giving me a hug, saying merry christmas. they're all just really sweet, and you're probably sitting there thinking that's normal, but for my family it's not. not at all normal. my family are basically all really cold, and they have never said i love you to me or my mom.
i remember in the car, my mom said to me "family isn't necisarilly the people that share your blood. family is the people you surround yourself with"
and that's when it occured to me, it's not just chris's family, these people are my family too.
dallas's mom said today, that this was probably the best christmas ever. and she was definatly right.
i fucking love christmas
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first off, merry christmas everyone. :)
now that that's out of the way, i guess i'll say what happened today. i'm one of those people who can never sleep on christmas eve. and you can probably imagine how much harder is was for me to sleep, when i was younger and thought santa could be in my living room and i would miss him. so, at around 6:30 in the morning, i go to wake my mom and chris up. they made me wait until daylight, but whatever. 6:30 is the earliest i have been up since last christmas...
so we go to the family room to open our presents, and chris like flipped when she opened the things i got her. my mom's favorite movie is the wizard of oz. she's always saying how that's the only movie she can watch over and over again... so, i got her the special edition dvd, and it always makes me really happy to see that when i give people their gifts, that they enjoyed it. the thing i really love about christmas more than any other holiday is that it makes people so happy. it's not just material things like gifts, its what the gift symbolizes. it's the fact that the person who picked it out was thinking of you. that's what i care about the most. to tell you the truth, as much of a christmas whore i am, i could really care less how many gifts i get, or how much people spend on me. what i care about is the fact that someone cared enough to get me something.
so anyway, i'll probably post pictures of my gifts tomorrow, because i need to put them in the 0h_s0_em0 community anyway.
dallas came over around 1:30 or 2 to exchange our gifts. holy fucking hell she got me a skateboard from white sands! oh my god i just about flipped when i saw it. that was such an awesome gift, i cant even begin to explain. the only problem is that in my opinion, i didnt get her anything near as nice. i feel really bad, because i cant afford to get anyone things like that for gifts. i know i said that i dont care how much people spend on me, as long as they're thinking of me, but i always feel bad about things like this... i cant really explain why.
dallas is my best friend in the entire world, and i would seriously give my life for her in a second, and i feel like i'm being a really shitty friend, because we'll be in the mall and i'll be short on something i'm buying and she'll always give me the extra money. and i always feel bad because, i'm pretty much poor as fuck, especially now, thanks to the $20,000 medical bill just for vista del mar. i guess i feel bad, 'cause its like, she might be short on something, and i'll never be able to loan her money. i'll never be the one to loan her money when she needs it, because i'll probably never be able to afford it.
now onto a happier subject about today...
after dallas left, my mom, chris, and i went to chris's mom's house to open more presents, and to eat dinner. oh my god, i seriously love chris's family so much! there were people related to chris that i have never even met, coming over, and giving me a hug, saying merry christmas. they're all just really sweet, and you're probably sitting there thinking that's normal, but for my family it's not. not at all normal. my family are basically all really cold, and they have never said i love you to me or my mom.
i remember in the car, my mom said to me "family isn't necisarilly the people that share your blood. family is the people you surround yourself with"
and that's when it occured to me, it's not just chris's family, these people are my family too.
dallas's mom said today, that this was probably the best christmas ever. and she was definatly right.
i fucking love christmas
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