Headway
So we went to talk to Pastor John Hostettler today and to tell you the truth I think that we made some headway. I like that Pastor John and the church members are able to say things to Caleb in a way that won't make him get all defensive and mad. I like that they care about him no matter what and they are willing to help however they can. They are truly the best friends that anyone could ask for.
Pray for our finances if you can manage that...because really this time we are cutting it close major. This time we have no money and 2 more bills that we need to pay and them some payments that we need to make to the bank to keep caught up on fees. I have this smelly good stuff that I ordered from Avon for my husband because he really likes the scent and now I am not sure how I am going to manage getting it paid for. AHHH!
Then the church says that they are going to help us get the money that we need to be able to go on this Couple's Retreat. I really am glad because I am thinking that Caleb and I rarely get a chance to spend time with couples as a couple. That is something that I really want because I think it will help. No couple is going to be perfect...so I just want him to see other couples and know that we aren't the only couple that has problems.
The Eric thing came up again. This time really really hardcore and bad. You know this time there was restraining involved and him trying to force me to never talk to him again. Yea I just can't seem to get through to him and that hurts. I love Caleb not Eric. I know that might sound a bit insane since to the outside world at least Eric treats me good. Well that isn't the reason...and I know it sounds nuts. Caleb has this innocence about him and he is so straight forward and honest that sometimes I wish he could have tact...but in another sense that would take some of his originality away. I know that he is telling the truth and when he is trying his level best to fib about stuff because it is all right there on his face. There is no tricks or deception I just know a lie from the truth with him. But that isn't it either. This is a thing I know I have said in the past...he is the exception to all of my rules. I have never been so open with someone so quickly and something in me allowed myself to trust him just like that. I know that sounds lame to some...but that means a lot to me.
What else? My step sister Kristen and her husband Raymond are having to move to Lincoln. Yea...Hurricane Katrina took everything they had. They found some salvagable clothes...dishes and silverware and that is it. No house no 2nd car no nothing. I am just thankful and glad that they have their lives and that their family all survived down there. So today my dad and Stepmom left for Mississippi to get them and help them pack and get them back safely here.
Hey another bad glitch that I have to mention...I sorta asked my mom to watch Sayra for this Couple's Retreat that Caleb and I are going to for 3 days. I really wanted my mom to take care of her since she really hasn't had a chance to...and now I have no idea what I am going to do! Caleb's mom Sharon...also wants to take care of Sayra...she really really thinks that she is going to. I want my mom to have a chance with Sayra since Sharon sees her on a regular basis and whatnot and my mom doesn't...But both of these women are horribly fragile and I have no idea what I am going to do!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!! How in the friggin heck do I get myself into these things? I miss life when it was easy and normal...and AHHHH!!!!
Making headway and yet taking a few steps back...
Peace---
"Luna"
Pray for our finances if you can manage that...because really this time we are cutting it close major. This time we have no money and 2 more bills that we need to pay and them some payments that we need to make to the bank to keep caught up on fees. I have this smelly good stuff that I ordered from Avon for my husband because he really likes the scent and now I am not sure how I am going to manage getting it paid for. AHHH!
Then the church says that they are going to help us get the money that we need to be able to go on this Couple's Retreat. I really am glad because I am thinking that Caleb and I rarely get a chance to spend time with couples as a couple. That is something that I really want because I think it will help. No couple is going to be perfect...so I just want him to see other couples and know that we aren't the only couple that has problems.
The Eric thing came up again. This time really really hardcore and bad. You know this time there was restraining involved and him trying to force me to never talk to him again. Yea I just can't seem to get through to him and that hurts. I love Caleb not Eric. I know that might sound a bit insane since to the outside world at least Eric treats me good. Well that isn't the reason...and I know it sounds nuts. Caleb has this innocence about him and he is so straight forward and honest that sometimes I wish he could have tact...but in another sense that would take some of his originality away. I know that he is telling the truth and when he is trying his level best to fib about stuff because it is all right there on his face. There is no tricks or deception I just know a lie from the truth with him. But that isn't it either. This is a thing I know I have said in the past...he is the exception to all of my rules. I have never been so open with someone so quickly and something in me allowed myself to trust him just like that. I know that sounds lame to some...but that means a lot to me.
What else? My step sister Kristen and her husband Raymond are having to move to Lincoln. Yea...Hurricane Katrina took everything they had. They found some salvagable clothes...dishes and silverware and that is it. No house no 2nd car no nothing. I am just thankful and glad that they have their lives and that their family all survived down there. So today my dad and Stepmom left for Mississippi to get them and help them pack and get them back safely here.
Hey another bad glitch that I have to mention...I sorta asked my mom to watch Sayra for this Couple's Retreat that Caleb and I are going to for 3 days. I really wanted my mom to take care of her since she really hasn't had a chance to...and now I have no idea what I am going to do! Caleb's mom Sharon...also wants to take care of Sayra...she really really thinks that she is going to. I want my mom to have a chance with Sayra since Sharon sees her on a regular basis and whatnot and my mom doesn't...But both of these women are horribly fragile and I have no idea what I am going to do!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!! How in the friggin heck do I get myself into these things? I miss life when it was easy and normal...and AHHHH!!!!
Making headway and yet taking a few steps back...
Peace---
"Luna"