Is there ever a right thing? Or isit just a matter of the less WRONG thing?
So Jimmy you think that I am doing the right thing letting things out and whatnot... I think that right and wrong is simply based on a matter of opinion. Like Caleb...he thinks that me being concerned like I was...is simply me treating him like a child and talking to him like a child...and I thought of it as showing love and concern...so whose opinion is right? I have no idea what to think anymore.
Well what else can I say?
Adriana is such a good sister and the thing is these days she is keeping in touch with Muriel...my late sister Sayra's sister in Wolfpoint, Montana. I have no idea what to think about that...because when Sayra...was still living...I was the one keeping in touch with her all the time...and now. I can't even bring myself to write to Danielle and Muriel. They are only 2 of Sayra's siblings...there is Kaitlyn and Orin and I can't remember...her name...there is one more sister. But the thing is...I named my beautiful little daughter after Sayra and I have nothing to say to them...or give them and I don't feel like sending the pictures I have to them...or all the letters I have started to write will make any bit of a difference in their lives. I love them as much as I loved my sister Sayra and I just feel like ME as a person have nothing to give to them...and I just can't shake that feeling. I love Danielle because she is so much like me and I am like her and Muriel is so much like Adriana and that is why I can understand that Adriana is close to her. There is a tough time going on with Muriel and her family and I want to help...but I repeatedly let fear overrule any chance of me being able to be in touch. I just keep thinking that they have to be wondering what would possess me to name my daughter after my sister. Thinking that I want to replace someone that I lost...that we all lost and they have got to be thinking that I can't.
I have to go.
Peace---
Leahandra
"Luna"
Well what else can I say?
Adriana is such a good sister and the thing is these days she is keeping in touch with Muriel...my late sister Sayra's sister in Wolfpoint, Montana. I have no idea what to think about that...because when Sayra...was still living...I was the one keeping in touch with her all the time...and now. I can't even bring myself to write to Danielle and Muriel. They are only 2 of Sayra's siblings...there is Kaitlyn and Orin and I can't remember...her name...there is one more sister. But the thing is...I named my beautiful little daughter after Sayra and I have nothing to say to them...or give them and I don't feel like sending the pictures I have to them...or all the letters I have started to write will make any bit of a difference in their lives. I love them as much as I loved my sister Sayra and I just feel like ME as a person have nothing to give to them...and I just can't shake that feeling. I love Danielle because she is so much like me and I am like her and Muriel is so much like Adriana and that is why I can understand that Adriana is close to her. There is a tough time going on with Muriel and her family and I want to help...but I repeatedly let fear overrule any chance of me being able to be in touch. I just keep thinking that they have to be wondering what would possess me to name my daughter after my sister. Thinking that I want to replace someone that I lost...that we all lost and they have got to be thinking that I can't.
I have to go.
Peace---
Leahandra
"Luna"