sigh
i have had a few good days back in nj. my kids were awesome yesterday and today. i am so happy that i spend my time with them. they make me laugh and smile all the time. and they make me feel good about life. which is super important.
my one class seems like its going to be interesting. im kinda excited to see how it all goes.
im trying to get time off to go to cali but for some reason i dont think its going to be so good. and maybe thats ok. i just miss aris, kari... gus... i wish all my friends lived closer together. i got my job back for the summer in occidental... which im super excited for. i loved it last summer, even though it almost killed me!! hehe
missing my friends at home but its weriod how you can fall back into your life in different places.
i went hiking today to try to think about my life. im so lost emotionally. im always fighting with the italian, not feeling like im putting myself first, and always scared im hurting or letting someone down. but im so happy in other ways, just a balance thing i need to work out. but my hike was really good it really helped clear my head. i kinda went pretty far, i was exhusted when i got back but it might just have been everything i have on me right now.
im headed to chester new york tomorrow to hang out with one of my co-workers. pretty excited... i like her alot... she and i just laugh all the time. sigh
anyway all is good. i should not complain
my one class seems like its going to be interesting. im kinda excited to see how it all goes.
im trying to get time off to go to cali but for some reason i dont think its going to be so good. and maybe thats ok. i just miss aris, kari... gus... i wish all my friends lived closer together. i got my job back for the summer in occidental... which im super excited for. i loved it last summer, even though it almost killed me!! hehe
missing my friends at home but its weriod how you can fall back into your life in different places.
i went hiking today to try to think about my life. im so lost emotionally. im always fighting with the italian, not feeling like im putting myself first, and always scared im hurting or letting someone down. but im so happy in other ways, just a balance thing i need to work out. but my hike was really good it really helped clear my head. i kinda went pretty far, i was exhusted when i got back but it might just have been everything i have on me right now.
im headed to chester new york tomorrow to hang out with one of my co-workers. pretty excited... i like her alot... she and i just laugh all the time. sigh
anyway all is good. i should not complain