Friday, April 02, 2010
i need more than anything a home of my own. i plan to stay here at my moms at least until jamison is 2 months old...however i need to find us a home until then.
section 8 housing's list id completely full for the next 2 years. so thats out.
and as much as i want to believe and trust him...i dont think i can rely on garth to have a home ready by then...if at all.
i still love him but i also realize he just is not ready to grow up. face responcibilities. and be a dad.
i think he will be a great father relationship wise...but supportive wise i believe he will have issues. he says he is working towards an ID so hopefully that will get him somewhere. all i can do is wait and see...but if i dont have some form of proof that he is helping me support our son...families first will go after him and force me to sue for child support....and that CANT be good for our relationship at all...like it needs any help falling apart....
i need help...and i know i do...but i dont know what to do...i have no home. or car or a job. or anything... all i have is a few members of family but honestly how much will they actually be willing to do? my cousin kicked us both out cause both her and her husband were having issues before us being there...and when we were there they kept accusing the other of sleeping with one of us. her with garth. me with kevin. FUCK i hate this hell.....
section 8 housing's list id completely full for the next 2 years. so thats out.
and as much as i want to believe and trust him...i dont think i can rely on garth to have a home ready by then...if at all.
i still love him but i also realize he just is not ready to grow up. face responcibilities. and be a dad.
i think he will be a great father relationship wise...but supportive wise i believe he will have issues. he says he is working towards an ID so hopefully that will get him somewhere. all i can do is wait and see...but if i dont have some form of proof that he is helping me support our son...families first will go after him and force me to sue for child support....and that CANT be good for our relationship at all...like it needs any help falling apart....
i need help...and i know i do...but i dont know what to do...i have no home. or car or a job. or anything... all i have is a few members of family but honestly how much will they actually be willing to do? my cousin kicked us both out cause both her and her husband were having issues before us being there...and when we were there they kept accusing the other of sleeping with one of us. her with garth. me with kevin. FUCK i hate this hell.....