Repeats...
I keep repeating events and words in my head... I keep crying out when I sleep. If I sleep. I go from happy memories and feeling tingly butterflies in my stomach to feeling sharp pains in my chest.
Makes it hard to try and sleep. I know its not been long... how long will I be like this? At least the puppies are a good distraction. Only 2 btw. Xray was negative. So I have my perfect little girl and theres Pickett. Shes thriving btw... tiny, but mighty. Shes grown so much already and has a constant little pot belly. <3 Ive not had to bottle feed her not once! She even tries tackling the giant pancake nipple!
Ive got to come up with the perfect name for the little girl Im keeping... so thats also a distraction...
I finished Raising Dion show last night and now I dont know what to do with myself anymore lol. Mostly playing solitaire. Constantly refreshing my email to see if theres anything from you....I know its stupid... but its a glimpse of hope.