Title: Whole Lotta Love
Chapters: 5.2/??
Author:
luna_no_koibitoGenre: Romance, Life
Warnings: men/men relationship, cursing, sex, violence.
FOR THIS STORY the band NIGHTMARE will be a PS Company band
Rating: from PG -15 to PG -17 (Depending on chapter)
Pairing: Shou,Gackt (main) Ruki/Hyde, Kai/Ruka, Hiroto/Reita (more pairs will appear as the story proceeds)
Summary:
Year: 2004
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Chapter 5 part 1 Miyavi began dragging Shou down a windowed hallway. He was holding the younger singer by the wrist, at which Shou didn't protest, because he didn't know if his nervousness would have allowed him to walk on his own.
But then, in the middle of the way, he stopped, and freed himself from Miyavi's wrist.
-Gomennasai … Miyavi-san. I really appreciate your help but, ... I don't think I should go - Miyavi didn't look shocked or saddened by the news, his face was actually emotionless, which slightly disappointed Shou, who was expecting, or rather, wanting him to force him into going. The pink haired singer then leaned on the tiny space in between two windows, with his arms folded on his chest.
-I am not going to force you or anything. I am just a messenger, and this is as far as my job goes - he said looking at Shou.
-Arigatou! - politely replied Shou with a smile. He then bowed and turned on his heels
-But … - continued Miyavi, at which word Shou swiftly turned around
-If you will allow me to deliver my message properly … - he then stopped, and pulled himself off the wall. He turned to look outside the window on his right. The older singer looked back at Shou and motioned him to come closer.
Shou hesitantly placed himself next to the elder singer, and looking out, he stared at nowhere.
-Look down there. Do you see that car? - he asked the younger singer, who just nodded
-He has been sitting in there, for at least four hours hoping, praying, to see you … - concluded Miyavi , no emotion in his voice either, almost cold.
The blonde didn't say anything, they stayed there, standing. After a while, the elder singer moved out of the window, and facing Shou he added
-Well, that is my car anyway, so I shall go and deliver your message, and take my property back - He then waved at him, and placing his hands into his pants' pockets, he left.
Shou bowed once more in response, and turned towards his original destination. As he walked, he forced himself no to look outside of the infinite windows that decorated the long corridor, and sped his steps. When he got off the corridor he stopped for a second, he could feel his heart racing, as he bit his trembling lower lip.
He resumed walking towards the elevator, his heartbeat awkwardly increasing. Once he reached the metallic doors, he pushed the down button, and as he waited for the doors to open, he felt something wet on his cheek. He smiled in wonder, and as he cleaned the lonely drop, another one appeared on the other cheek, and another one, and another one …
Then as he desperately tried to hold his tears back, a familiar sound announced the arrival of the elevator. The doors opened, and as he was about to step into the little chamber, his heartbeat seemed to explode in his chest. He slowly stepped back, and looking at the elevator's door close, he turned around and began running.
When he reached the windowed corridor, he increased his speed, and quickly reached the other elevator . At his arrival, he frantically kept pushing the down button, as if by doing so, it was going to arrive faster. Finally the doors opened, he quickly rushed in, and pressed the ground button. He was on the seventh floor, but the slow descent made it seem as if he were going down hundred floors, as he kept on chanting Please be there, please be there...
The doors finally opened, and he ran, he ran faster than he had ever in his life, almost falling over some office ladies that were sheepishly moving all over the building's hall. He reached the huge entrance doors, and he once more bit his lip, nervously waiting for the door to slide open. Before it could even open completely, he made himself trough and resumed his frenzied run towards the gate.
As he got to the get, he quickly stopped and smiled at the officer who approached him
-Taking a break? - he kindly ask
-yes, please … - hastily panted Shou, as he motion at the closed gate, the officer just nodded and went back to open the barrier. Once again, the singer didn't wait for the doors to open completely and slid out, he then finally turned to his right, and began running towards the turn, where the car was supposed to be.
Seconds later, he reached the intersection, and suddenly stopped. He held himself on his knees, and as he deeply inhaled, he closed his eyes and made the turn. When his eyes slowly opened the car; was gone.
He dropped on the wall behind him, and holding his hand under his nose, he started crying and laughing at the same time. But the laughter didn't last too long, as he slid down the wall he was resting, and dropped, burying his head between his legs, wrapping his arms around them as tightly as he could.
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It had been half an hour since Miyavi had left Gackt in his car. The brunette never thought waiting could have been as frustrating as it felt at the moment. He jumped at every person who happened to approach the car, and swiftly turned in any direction he heard voices. It quickly became nerve-racking, but he liked the feeling. The feeling of wanting to see someone so bad, wanting to love and be loved again, it had been a while since he had felt that way.
He really had given up on love, convincing himself that it would have been impossible for him to even look at another person and feel anything at all, not the way he did like when he was with Kami.
Kami, the love of his life, the person, who so affectionately and devotedly had kept the singer's going for so long, that warm flame in his body that had been suddenly blown out.
After the death of the drummer, Gackt hadn't cried once, he hadn't had the heart to do so, as he kept on denying reality. The presence of the drummer was still so alive in him, he just couldn't accept his lover's death, he wouldn't have. The way he'd smiled at him every time he got irritated, and calm him down. The way he was able to make him laugh, with that funny expression of his. The way his drums just seem to play at the same exact frequency of his heart, because he in fact, he did owned his heart, and had left with it the day he died.
However, no matter how hard you try, you can't escape from reality, and it slowly got him, every time he woke up to find the other side of his bed empty, when he'd have leftover's after cooking for two, when he'd absentmindedly ask where an exact pair of sunglasses were, and no answer would come through. As days passed by, with him accepting the truth, the only person he had to keep him up was his work, he had dived into it, doing more and more every second of his life, it was as if he was also accomplishing the part of work that his deceased lover obviously couldn't.
He had to admit though, that if he had been able to laugh again it had been for the most part thanks to Yoshiki. The genuine way with which he always faced things had been shocking and and refreshing every time. And now, thanks to Shou, his heart had resumed beating again.
Another thirty minutes had passed, and no sign of the pink haired singer; frustration had turned into anxiety, when he suddenly reached for the singer's glove compartment and looked for paper and pen, feeling this sudden rush of lyrics running through his head. As he found the desired material, he quickly leaned on the horn pad and immediately wrote one sentence:
Kimi ni aitakute,
Dare yorimo aitakute
(I want to meet/see you,
more than anyone else)
That was exactly how he felt at the moment, and decided the world should also know.
Hours passed as he found himself immersed into his lyric writing, forgetting the reason why was writing them in the confined space of someone's car. However, he was abruptly brought back to reality, by Miyavi's face, which suddenly stuck itself on his side window
-demented brat … - he whispered to himself as he tried to decelerate the beat of his shocked heart. He then quickly looked passed the singer, and noticed that he was alone.
-Come on let's go, I'll take you home - said the younger man as he opened his door. Gackt just looked up at him in apparent confusion, and managed to ask
-Why? … what happened? -
-he said he doesn't think he should see you - calmly said Miyavi, as he leaned on the opened door looking at Gackt's distraught face, who managed to speak again, this time in a slightly frustrated tone
-What? … W-why? -
-Don't ask me, I am just a mess-an-ge~r! - chanted Miyavi as he looked at the rising figure of the brunette, who still looking rather confused, slowly walked to the front passenger seat, still holding his lyrics in his hands.
This wasn't right, something was definitely wrong, he thought as he opened the door. He didn't want to give too much credit to himself but, he could almost but his life on the fact that they both wanted to see each other, his newly acquired heart was telling that. And what was he doing? Just leaving like that? All he had been doing was waiting for his angel to come to him, wasn't it time he tried to fly to him?
As they approached a red traffic light a block away, he stared at the lyrics in his hands
… Dare yorimo aitakute …
Then as if he had just had a revelation, he order the singer to give him his hat and glasses
-What? Why? -protested the younger
-just hurry up and give them to me, I'll bring them back I promise - urged the brunette. Miyavi didn't ask further, and just complied. As soon as he got the object, Gackt looked up at the traffic light, it was still red. He then opened the door, and quickly closed it
-Hey, wha- tried to say Miyavi
-Don't worry … thank you! - shouted the brunette began his long run towards PS building.
He ran, he ran with all his might, without stopping for nothing or nobody. He hadn't been sure about something for a long time, he finally knew what he was supposed to do, and he wasn't going to let it disappear, not without a good fight. He finally reached the building, and had to stop to catch his breath, forcing him to unwillingly realize that, yes, he was getting old.
He just had to cross the road, and then run in, and … do something, he didn't yet know what, but it had no importance at the moment. As he quickly crossed the road, the tail of his eye fell on a the figure of a man crouched on a wall. He then realized that that was was the spot where the car was previously parked, and his doubts were immediately swept away, as the crying face of the man, quickly rose up for a second.
Happiness was now overwhelming him, he knew it, that was just the way things were supposed to be.
He slowly got closer to the figure and stopped a few feet away.
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-Your smile … - said a familiar voice, as Shou slowly pulled his head up and looked in the direction the sound came from
-… your smile is the color that best fits your eyes. I was right. - and there was Gackt smiling at him, as he extended his hand.
The blonde starred in shocked; this wasn't happening. Gackt moved closer and bent a little to pick the fragile looking singer in front of him. Shou tightly held his hand as he was raised to his feet, as to make sure that he wasn't dreaming.
He then turned to look at Gackt, backed up a few step, and began stuttering
-I-I … I-I … - but he couldn't find any sensible words, and even if he could have, he wouldn't have been able to say anything, as Gackt quickly grabbed him and closed him tight into his embrace. Shou tightly embraced him back, as he felt tears streaming down again. Gackt then lowered his head and said
-Don't ever leave me again, because I won't let go, if you don't. - Shou simply nodded in his chest, he really didn't know what to say, he just didn't want to let go.
Gackt then softly broke the embrace, and looked down at blonde. He dried off his tears and resumed talking
-Aaaaah, this can't be a good start if I already managed to not show up on time, and make you cry, on our first date! - he stated and made the blond chuckle, as he dried the remaining tears.
-Dear you go, that's the face I wanted to see - kindly continued Gackt, as he caressed away the blonde fringe, but was caught off guard when the vocalist suddenly glued himself back to his chest and spoke
-C-can we stay like this … for a l-little longer? -
-As much as you want - replied the older, as he placed his chin on the younger man's head, and began stroking his golden locks. They did stay like that for a while, in their own little world, until Gackt broke the silence.
-Next? What would you like to do? - the younger one sighed and slowly pulled himself up.
-How about … a real date …? - he attempted to say, Gackt gave him a big smile
-I haven't been to one in centuries … - jokingly said the brunette causing the blonde to laugh and then resumed - but if that's what you want, sure … tonight? -
-Tonight is … - Shou was about to conclude the sentence with perfect but he remembered he had promised to spend the night with Ruki.
-Tonight is … not to good, I promised my cousin we were going to do things together … -
-Are you going out? Or staying at home? - asked the brunette
-We are most likely staying home … -
-Ok then, I'll pass by and- tried to say the other but was suddenly interrupted by the blonde
-Eh?! Do you want Ruki to finish up what he couldn't?!? - he exclaimed with a worried expression
-Relax, I am going to text, and you are going to let's say … throw away the trash, and I'll be out there waiting - Shou quickly thought about it, and then replied
-You most have been your lovers' parents nightmare during high school -
-Something like that - replied the other with a smile, as he brought out his cell phone, and exchanged numbers with Shou.
-Ok my address is … - continued Shou, and even though Gackt already knew where the blonde lived he didn't stop him, he didn't want to look like a stalker, or explain the real reason why he had happened to find himself in front of his house.
-Ok. what next? - asked the brunette once more, as he gently pushed a lock of the blond's her behind his ear
-Well now ... I think now, I should probably, get back to do something productive … - replied Shou looking back at the PS building. Gackt smirked, and got closer to the younger man.
-Ok then, see you tonight - he whispered, pecked the blonde on the lips, and as he slowly walked backwards to take a last glanced of his angel, he quickly crossed the street and ran away.
Shou remained put, gently caressing his lips with his fingers, as he waited until he couldn't see Gackt's silhouette anymore. When the brunette vanished from his sight, he then looked at the sky and thanked it for have given him a non deserved second chance.
Chapter 6 part 1
A/N: and two lovers finally unite, and I wished they ahd enjoyed this moment a bit longer, but a famous Italian song says (BTW I am from Italy ^_^) "Il vero amore, per sempre e' unito dal cielo, nessuno in terra, anche se vuole, puo' separarlo mai l'ha detto lui". Translation: "True love, it will be eternally united by the sky (meaning the gods), and nobody on earth, can separate it, He himself said it (He refering to God). Hope you are enjoying it!