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A year today since I started work in NZ, and I have a strange buzz in my bloodstream this week. It's a consistent nervousness and questioning. I'm not sure if it's because I've been so busy, or may be jet lagged from Sydney, but perhaps it could also be my mind settling on the other things that happened a year ago. Part of me will never stop wondering if he ever understood how much I adored him, or if I'll ever feel so much love for anyone else. Only time will tell right?
For now, I can just be amused by the repeat of seasons and the thrill of feeling summer wake up. I'll be living in a new flat soon with a good friend, and hopefully making bigger, even more rewarding steps at work. Christmas will be at home this year, with family that I missed so much last year. And so, one year later, perhaps my life is feeling more like the spring that defines this time of year.
For now, I can just be amused by the repeat of seasons and the thrill of feeling summer wake up. I'll be living in a new flat soon with a good friend, and hopefully making bigger, even more rewarding steps at work. Christmas will be at home this year, with family that I missed so much last year. And so, one year later, perhaps my life is feeling more like the spring that defines this time of year.