I've Got 100 Resoultions...

[lumpyjoe]

I have been thinking about it and I pretty much suck in relationships. I think I do pretty well but I have to be wrong, because everything always ends up shitty. I try my best, but often that's not enough. I could do more, and I should do more. I need more humility. Ugh...my stomache hurts a bunch right now. I am so tired of feeling this way. I mean it's not there a alot, but when it is, it sucks. I need to re-evaulate myself. I need to be happy again. I am happy a majority of the times, don't get me wrong I am not down in the dumps anywhere near all of the time, but man when it hits it's brutal. I need to write my statement of purpose for SF and I don't have the motivation, but I better find it. Well I guess I'll just crank up my music, clean the house for when my parents get back from dropping off my brother in SB, and try and stay positive.

"Can't face tomorrow with these thoughts of yesterday
I can't escape the lies and make them go away
Wish I had the answers to make it through
Can't shake these images no matter what I do
I guess I'll use them to make me a stronger man
I'll use each twisted tortured memory to help me understand
And I will learn from mistakes that everone makes
I've got to find a way
I guess I'll have to live with them every single day"