Yes, I do still breathe...and the stinging is fading to a mild numb.
Well, Well, Well. I can give my ass a big ol' kiss right now. I managed to snag an A in 201. Phew. I can't believe I managed to balance the workload, all while being dragged along through the shitty kindergarten sandbox that has been the last couple of weeks. Now I just have two more terms to go, and it should hopefully be a bit easier.
Man, for those of you not in the know (ie. close friends not currently in Eugene right now) when I can get a hold of you for a long talk, I will get you up to date in much more vivid detail. In the meantime, let me just say that I am not the type of person who makes, has, retains, or seeks out enemies. That being said, there are a couple of entities in this world that I have little to less than zero respect for at this time. I'd hazard that if there were people out there who actively hated me, they would prove to treat me with higher regard than I have been shown ever so recently. One thing is for sure, these two are of the same crop, and totally deserve each other. Dr. Phil and I both hope it ends well.
Guh, all of this really sucks, in that I used to think that they were pretty cool (one much more than the other naturally), but now it seems as if a zipper was pulled, and some foreign self-consumed monster popped out in the place of one once so close. Was it ever really genuine? I guess it's a waste of time to ruminate too heavily on such questions, for actions speak louder than words.
But how ultimately dissapointing. What a stunning letdown, of grand proportions. I am not going to venture as far to say that this is the letdown of a lifetime, for I do have so much ahead of me.
In fact, part of me is really glad that all of this happened the way it did in that it provided me with a putrid little meter to gauge exactly who it was I was dealing with, and made it all the more easy for me to be on my merry way.
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So, honestly, thank you for that. Thank you for chasing me out of your life, for I am slowly coming to the realization that life could actually be good out here. And ultimately it will.
Have a ball man. I am off to study.
Man, for those of you not in the know (ie. close friends not currently in Eugene right now) when I can get a hold of you for a long talk, I will get you up to date in much more vivid detail. In the meantime, let me just say that I am not the type of person who makes, has, retains, or seeks out enemies. That being said, there are a couple of entities in this world that I have little to less than zero respect for at this time. I'd hazard that if there were people out there who actively hated me, they would prove to treat me with higher regard than I have been shown ever so recently. One thing is for sure, these two are of the same crop, and totally deserve each other. Dr. Phil and I both hope it ends well.
Guh, all of this really sucks, in that I used to think that they were pretty cool (one much more than the other naturally), but now it seems as if a zipper was pulled, and some foreign self-consumed monster popped out in the place of one once so close. Was it ever really genuine? I guess it's a waste of time to ruminate too heavily on such questions, for actions speak louder than words.
But how ultimately dissapointing. What a stunning letdown, of grand proportions. I am not going to venture as far to say that this is the letdown of a lifetime, for I do have so much ahead of me.
In fact, part of me is really glad that all of this happened the way it did in that it provided me with a putrid little meter to gauge exactly who it was I was dealing with, and made it all the more easy for me to be on my merry way.
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So, honestly, thank you for that. Thank you for chasing me out of your life, for I am slowly coming to the realization that life could actually be good out here. And ultimately it will.
Have a ball man. I am off to study.