alone,listless
I was a little storm cloud today and i'm sorry if it rubbed off on anyone,believe me if i could have avoided social situations i would have.
I feel like..a mess..because i don't know what i feel and there seems to be only a little piece of me left right now,i don't know whats taken up the rest of me but i don't know it and i don't like it.I feel like my own mind is unfamiliar territory and i can't grasp the solution,i don't know what i'm feeling really,other than frustration and upset and horrible weakness.A mixture of things have upset me and some of them are just my minds doing,im low and today i found it impossible to pull myself back up again.Last night i had an absolute fit of tears and again this morning,i hate being so out of control!
things aren't nice in this house anymore,just me and mum and it's so tense i can feel myself shutting off and ceasing up when i come home.When she's in i wish she would just go out again,im not getting into a rant and i don't want to get personal on a livejournal ,but then here i am doing just that,end of this angsty rabble.
Im going to write again when im less whingey ,i wanted to talk about the tech show ,it was hilarious..but yes i will write abouit it soon!.
I feel like..a mess..because i don't know what i feel and there seems to be only a little piece of me left right now,i don't know whats taken up the rest of me but i don't know it and i don't like it.I feel like my own mind is unfamiliar territory and i can't grasp the solution,i don't know what i'm feeling really,other than frustration and upset and horrible weakness.A mixture of things have upset me and some of them are just my minds doing,im low and today i found it impossible to pull myself back up again.Last night i had an absolute fit of tears and again this morning,i hate being so out of control!
things aren't nice in this house anymore,just me and mum and it's so tense i can feel myself shutting off and ceasing up when i come home.When she's in i wish she would just go out again,im not getting into a rant and i don't want to get personal on a livejournal ,but then here i am doing just that,end of this angsty rabble.
Im going to write again when im less whingey ,i wanted to talk about the tech show ,it was hilarious..but yes i will write abouit it soon!.