Depressed????????
Sometimes I just want to leave the world and go into hiding by myself since sometimes it does not seem anything I do is right. I really feel sometimes that nothing is going well for me. I might be depressed but I know I am still kind of lucky since I do have a job and I am respected and liked at work. Unfortunately the job I have is not what I want to do and I feel I am just languishing there because I am not using anything I learned in school. I really need to setup an appointment to take the GRE in October but its really hard with a full time job to actually study for it. Of course I will study and take it but I still feel I am not going anyhwere. I feel like I am struggling just to get by during the day (not money wise just seems like a struggle mentally or emotionally). Many times I really would like to forget and just go out and do stuff but that does not help either since I have to go back. I guess I am just rambling on but I feel a little better writing this now. I wish I could be more important but alas I am just a small cog in a large machine and does not matter what I do here so far. I feel like I need a hug sometimes.