(no subject)
you know, i'm going to try not to care that my boyfriend is obsessed with his ex girlfriend's tits. I'm just tired of hearing about how perfect lauren's body was for adam. it makes me want to vomit actually. what kind of person tells that to their girlfriend? i think he feels he can tell me anything because i believe in a policy of honesty, but some things should be left unsaid. i believe my policy of honesty stretches to things that are only necessary to know and only add to the relationship not make me feel like a pile of shit because i have small breasts. ergh. it just makes me really pissed off that there is a girl out there that my boyfriend finds to be the most perfect, physically attractive being. it doesnt effect how i feel about myself. i know i am far more attractive than she is and that im a very pretty girl who is healthy and takes good care of herself. and it also doesnt mean that i think adam shouldnt find other girls more attractive than me because there are guys out there that i find more attractive than him (i wouldnt ever tell him that though). its just keeps me thinking that im lacking something that he wants and that he'll go and find it elsewhere. i know he's not that shallow, but still. you shouldnt tell you new girlfriend that your last girl was physically perfect for you because that means i'm ALWAYS going to be lacking somehow. and its such fucking bullshit because she's an ugly fat hag with greasy nasty hair.