Argh! Devil food!
Ok, I have to stop this BS one way or another. I just have to have will power, and as suggested, to keep something like fruit or veggies nearby to snack on. No more chips, no more of the stuff that will be hurtful in the end.
I'm still not ready to go to the doctor and deal with my medication. That is truly going to take a lot more power than I can muster right now. I've always disliked going, though it's gotten worse over the years to a near paralyzing fear. I suppose it's because I don't care for the invasion of privacy and the way doctors have to literally get inside my personal space to do an exam. Ever since I can remember, I've been fearful of people I don't know getting too close. I suspect I know where this fear came from, but it's enough to know that I recognize that without going deeply into it here. I get nervous and tense if someone I don't know tries to hug me.
Anyway, the snacking I CAN control. Lots of water and eh... coffee. Not the best, but it does fill one up without dumping fatty calories into the system. Still have no idea what's causing the fevers though. That's a puzzling one.
I'm still not ready to go to the doctor and deal with my medication. That is truly going to take a lot more power than I can muster right now. I've always disliked going, though it's gotten worse over the years to a near paralyzing fear. I suppose it's because I don't care for the invasion of privacy and the way doctors have to literally get inside my personal space to do an exam. Ever since I can remember, I've been fearful of people I don't know getting too close. I suspect I know where this fear came from, but it's enough to know that I recognize that without going deeply into it here. I get nervous and tense if someone I don't know tries to hug me.
Anyway, the snacking I CAN control. Lots of water and eh... coffee. Not the best, but it does fill one up without dumping fatty calories into the system. Still have no idea what's causing the fevers though. That's a puzzling one.