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I have about 10 minutes before I have to leave (again).
I am having a feeling. Some anxiety. Some sadness.
I smoked last night - I spent a couple hours rearranging the house, cleaning and organizing.
There is a ton of stuff to get rid of. Some to donate and some to throw out, but I just want it gone. Yet I am still attached to it.
I have no idea how to arrange the front two rooms, in fact, I don't know that I even want the front two rooms any more. It's so much.
I want to be functioning creatively - there are a LOT of ideas for that. Crafting, windows, working with paper and fabric. I am not sure where to start, but just starting I suppose would be the answer.
And I'm worried about money, yet again. I hit a nice high for a couple weeks but, alas, no more. Of course that will change too.
Hoping for stability. Constantly hoping for stability. I still need to roll a smoke.
I need to write, organize and prioritize my thoughts. I also need to spend some time doing yoga.
However, I am slated to teach two classes today at the studio and then one at William's.
I am feeling overwhelmed, of course.. Although there are quite a few things under my belt now that needed attention - taxes, the kitchen (as always).
I want to make a mosaic for the summer - I will be getting rid of a lot of dishes and plates, should be a nice fun exercise with friends and something to put up in the back yard or bathroom.. Looking forward to that one.
Also we are looking to get the kayak out in the water at some point before the summer's over, get the motorcycles up and running for the fall, possibly get scuba certified in myrtle beach in September, look into doing some astronomy in the fall, working toward a 500hr certification with someone I am really looking forward to working with and approaching herbalism - at least getting some basics under my belt - pms treatment, liver support and cold/flu kit.
Oh yeah, and did I mention I have a show in September and maybe one in October too...
Probably working out today would have helped, but perhaps I can get to the woods... I don't know.
Just want to feel better. I know I need to take time for myself, get on my mat, roll a smoke, go for a walk in the woods - reset, nurture and breathe.
Just feeling a little uptight, old energy, stuck, cluttered, no time, worried about $$ and uncertain of myself at this moment. That's all. :P
Teaching usually helps and I will be picking up my check from work today..
I am having a feeling. Some anxiety. Some sadness.
I smoked last night - I spent a couple hours rearranging the house, cleaning and organizing.
There is a ton of stuff to get rid of. Some to donate and some to throw out, but I just want it gone. Yet I am still attached to it.
I have no idea how to arrange the front two rooms, in fact, I don't know that I even want the front two rooms any more. It's so much.
I want to be functioning creatively - there are a LOT of ideas for that. Crafting, windows, working with paper and fabric. I am not sure where to start, but just starting I suppose would be the answer.
And I'm worried about money, yet again. I hit a nice high for a couple weeks but, alas, no more. Of course that will change too.
Hoping for stability. Constantly hoping for stability. I still need to roll a smoke.
I need to write, organize and prioritize my thoughts. I also need to spend some time doing yoga.
However, I am slated to teach two classes today at the studio and then one at William's.
I am feeling overwhelmed, of course.. Although there are quite a few things under my belt now that needed attention - taxes, the kitchen (as always).
I want to make a mosaic for the summer - I will be getting rid of a lot of dishes and plates, should be a nice fun exercise with friends and something to put up in the back yard or bathroom.. Looking forward to that one.
Also we are looking to get the kayak out in the water at some point before the summer's over, get the motorcycles up and running for the fall, possibly get scuba certified in myrtle beach in September, look into doing some astronomy in the fall, working toward a 500hr certification with someone I am really looking forward to working with and approaching herbalism - at least getting some basics under my belt - pms treatment, liver support and cold/flu kit.
Oh yeah, and did I mention I have a show in September and maybe one in October too...
Probably working out today would have helped, but perhaps I can get to the woods... I don't know.
Just want to feel better. I know I need to take time for myself, get on my mat, roll a smoke, go for a walk in the woods - reset, nurture and breathe.
Just feeling a little uptight, old energy, stuck, cluttered, no time, worried about $$ and uncertain of myself at this moment. That's all. :P
Teaching usually helps and I will be picking up my check from work today..