ANOTNER day to waste
yesterday i made planes with dear malak so we can finally meet cuz i think the last time i saw her was like 3month ago i dont mind going and not seeing people for decades cuz i never really miss any one dk why but would absulotly love to see someone i really care about like her i personally consider her as a bff but dk if she does too it doesnt really matter to me tbh or maybe alittle bit but that little bit part iknow its all about my huge ego cuz iam insecure person i love to impress and make people counsider me as a huge special part in thier lives and they so lucky toget 2 know smone cool like me. some insecure people tend to overly show confedience so they can perfectly hide that insec part so i never really pay much attention to it HOW HEALTHY SELF AWARE OF ME !! I DESERVE A CLAP HAHAHA so any ways she had that specific spot she wanted to go 2 it went a little viral on tiktok so she wanted us to go to its near to SanStifano Mall so not very far like 30mins away i over slept she was already out w some freinds sounded alittle too much work to not do any thing and rush from the bed to get ready and go out so i asked her to delay it to next week but tbh the real reason for me to not be sure to go out is that i havent been studing enough to not feel guilty about going out so iam gonna do a very hard work this week and will save some money to so i dont have to ask mom for any money cuz every time i do she makes alot of fuss about it like couple week ago she gave omar like 1000$ and she be spending money on bags and shit like that new ugly bag she bought recently but when i asked her for bio class monthly money a day ago she strared yapping like CRAAZY and shouting she even started talking bout random shit like the way i walk like huuuuhhhh!!!!! she got real incurable problems fr so any way i decided today to finish my bio studies arabic chimstrey and english but i havent done but only the first 2 tasks what a waste of the day i guess this is enuogh for now i will go find smth to eat and regret it later