The California Quarter Comes Out This Year
So, I went back in my livejournal to see what I resolved last year, to
see if I did it, and to see if that's what I wanted to try for again
this year. All I posted last year, however, was a bunch of very sad
song quotes, and a survey (I'm so freaking addicted to those things).
So I don't even know if I even made a resolution this year. And if I
did, I know it didn't happen. Unless it was losing weight, I think
that's about the only good thing that I have done this year. So here it
goes, I'm resolving. It's official and recorded. And I know I said try
earlier, but you really shouldn't say that. I'm not going to try, I'm
going to do, and this is what I'm going to do. This year I resolve
to be a better person, I'm not going to disappoint myself this year.
I'm going to be the Justin I used to be. The one you can count on. The
good friend. This year I'm not going to let the people down who I love
the most. Basically EVERYTHING I did last year, I'm not going to
do this year. I'm not going to be the guy who breaks promises anymore.
On top of that I resolve to get my act together, even it's just some
music classes, I'm getting some sort of track. Because lately I've felt
pointless, and feeling like that has made it impossible to try to
change it. I'm going to go back to being me, because it is long
overdue. I'm done pushing people away, and I'm done avoiding and
ignoring and lying...for absolutely no reason other then me being do
disgusted with myself I can't face others.
You know, they say you don't know what you've got until it's gone. Well, steve and lynnette are leaving. Moving to arizona to make a better life then they have here. It kinda just hit me tonight what that entails, especially after reading lynnette's post. I've mentioned it before, but I haven't been the best friend to them. My timing is impeccable, because they've needed a good friend lately. And now they're leaving. My brother and sister are leaving (screw blood, family is what you make of it). I neglected them when I had them, and now they're going away, and the very little I saw of them is going to turn into very littler. They are good people, really good people, some of the best I know, and I'm am going to miss them so much, I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. So I'm making a special resolution for them. I resolve to visit them as often as I have the money. They're not getting rid of me that easily god dammit. This year is going to be a lot different from the last. Mark my words. Like I said, I'm done breaking promises.
So Happy New Year everyone! Whether your last one is sad or happy, good or bad. Loving or loveless. THE PAST IS IN THE PAST. And not even is today a new day, today is a new year. Let's make it a good one eh?
You know, they say you don't know what you've got until it's gone. Well, steve and lynnette are leaving. Moving to arizona to make a better life then they have here. It kinda just hit me tonight what that entails, especially after reading lynnette's post. I've mentioned it before, but I haven't been the best friend to them. My timing is impeccable, because they've needed a good friend lately. And now they're leaving. My brother and sister are leaving (screw blood, family is what you make of it). I neglected them when I had them, and now they're going away, and the very little I saw of them is going to turn into very littler. They are good people, really good people, some of the best I know, and I'm am going to miss them so much, I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. So I'm making a special resolution for them. I resolve to visit them as often as I have the money. They're not getting rid of me that easily god dammit. This year is going to be a lot different from the last. Mark my words. Like I said, I'm done breaking promises.
So Happy New Year everyone! Whether your last one is sad or happy, good or bad. Loving or loveless. THE PAST IS IN THE PAST. And not even is today a new day, today is a new year. Let's make it a good one eh?