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[lumaniac]

a lot of things have been happening but i haven't had the time to write anything down.

My trip to bangkok was incredible. I put my mind off of things and really relaxed for the first time in a long while.

But then work has been hell. I get VIP patients that are so demanding. Days are so long and i get so frustrated.

I figured i would come back from thailand and start everything in my life anew but it hasn't been like that.

i'm still dealing with the same problems and now it's even worse because i have to start deciding what to do

for the next few years of my life. Now L is becoming more of an old shadow. All i hear are her old echos.

Mentally i have never been this lost before. I have no idea what and where i will be this time next year.

My mentor at work just found out he has pancreatic cancer. I was so stunned. I didn't know what to say

to him. Prognosis for pancreatic cancer is dismal. I can't believe how someone  this brilliant can be made

so helpless just like that. Everything he's worked for will likely be gone in less than a year. It made me so scared.