I'm back!
Yeah, i know i didn't actually go anywhere, but i haven't updated in the longest time. Haven't really been that busy, since i was procrastinating.
Right now I'm just really really mad. My parents (or actually my mom in this case) just pull one over on me again. You know how they tell me one thing but always end up changing their minds. Well, it happened again. You know how it took them almost a year to finally understand that I need glasses after I tell them I need them for months. And how long did it take to finally get that damn VCR? And what about finally convincing them to let me go on that trip with my uncle's family? And that probably only happened cause they couldn't say no to my grandparents and my aunt. I'm sure I've mentioned to mostly everyone that I'm going back to China and Korea this summer. Well, guess what? Doesn't seem likely it'll happen now. My mom thinks i need to stay here to do all that major, course picking, and OSAP stuff. But damn it, how many times do I have to tell her I can't do some of those stuff until AFTER i come back. And then she says that since I won't know my mark i will be worried the entire trip. I don't the fucking care anymore, damn it. And then she has the nerve to ask me if I think I should go. I told her "It's not like my decision matters anyway." Which is true. My decision has never mattered. It's always what they think. I really really need to get out of here for the summer. Or at least part of the summer. I don't think I can stand listening to them badgering me about whether I got into my program or not for the entire summer. And my mom keep on badgering me about studying harder so I can get into a program. Doesn't she think I know that. Of course I wanna get into my fucking program. But damn it, it's not that easy. If she's in my shoes for a second she won't be bitching half as much. I know I don't study that hard, but having her badgering me is not gonna help. Stressing me out is only gonna lead to more procrastination on my part. It's one of the behavioral responses of stress. I actually learned this in the psych class. We're studying stress right now and damn it, i can identify with those responses of stress a bit too much. Alrighty, enough ranting for now. I'll be back the next time my mom piss me off. Which will probably be soon.
Right now I'm just really really mad. My parents (or actually my mom in this case) just pull one over on me again. You know how they tell me one thing but always end up changing their minds. Well, it happened again. You know how it took them almost a year to finally understand that I need glasses after I tell them I need them for months. And how long did it take to finally get that damn VCR? And what about finally convincing them to let me go on that trip with my uncle's family? And that probably only happened cause they couldn't say no to my grandparents and my aunt. I'm sure I've mentioned to mostly everyone that I'm going back to China and Korea this summer. Well, guess what? Doesn't seem likely it'll happen now. My mom thinks i need to stay here to do all that major, course picking, and OSAP stuff. But damn it, how many times do I have to tell her I can't do some of those stuff until AFTER i come back. And then she says that since I won't know my mark i will be worried the entire trip. I don't the fucking care anymore, damn it. And then she has the nerve to ask me if I think I should go. I told her "It's not like my decision matters anyway." Which is true. My decision has never mattered. It's always what they think. I really really need to get out of here for the summer. Or at least part of the summer. I don't think I can stand listening to them badgering me about whether I got into my program or not for the entire summer. And my mom keep on badgering me about studying harder so I can get into a program. Doesn't she think I know that. Of course I wanna get into my fucking program. But damn it, it's not that easy. If she's in my shoes for a second she won't be bitching half as much. I know I don't study that hard, but having her badgering me is not gonna help. Stressing me out is only gonna lead to more procrastination on my part. It's one of the behavioral responses of stress. I actually learned this in the psych class. We're studying stress right now and damn it, i can identify with those responses of stress a bit too much. Alrighty, enough ranting for now. I'll be back the next time my mom piss me off. Which will probably be soon.